Showing posts with label My soul is troubled. Show all posts
Showing posts with label My soul is troubled. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 31, 2021

While you have the light, believe in the light, that you may become sons of light

 
 "Now My soul is troubled, and what shall I say?  'Father, save Me from this hour'?  But for this purpose I came to this hour.  Father, glorify Your name."  Then a voice came from heaven, saying, "I have both glorified it and will glorify it again."  Therefore the people who stood by and heard it said that it had thundered.  Others said, "An angel has spoken to Him."  Jesus answered and said, "This voice did not come because of Me, but for your sake.  Now is the judgment of this world; now the ruler of this world will be cast out.  And I, if I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all peoples to Myself."  This He said, signifying by what death He would die.  The people answered Him, "We have heard from the law that the Christ remains forever; and how can You say, 'The Son of Man must be lifted up'?  Who is this Son of Man?"  Then Jesus said to them, "A little while longer the light is with you.  Walk while you have the light, lest darkness overtake you; he who walks in darkness does not know where he is going.  While you have the light, believe in the light, that you may become sons of light."  These things Jesus spoke, and departed, and was hidden from them. 
 
- John 12:27–36 
 
Yesterday we read that there were certain Greeks among those who came up to worship at the  Passover feast.  Then they came to Philip, who was from Bethsaida of Galilee, and asked him, saying, "Sir, we wish to see Jesus."  Philip came and told Andrew, and in turn Andrew and Philip told Jesus.  But Jesus answered them, saying, "The hour has come that the Son of Man should be glorified.  Most assuredly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it produces much grain.  He who loves his life will lose it, and he who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life.  If anyone serves Me, let him follow Me; and where I am, there My servant will be also.  If anyone serves Me, him My Father will honor."
 
  "Now My soul is troubled, and what shall I say?  'Father, save Me from this hour'?  But for this purpose I came to this hour."  My study bible refers us to the Synoptic Gospels which give us the story of Christ's agony in the Garden of Gethsemane.  In this statement, we can read of Jesus' troubled soul.  But nevertheless according to His divine nature, He willingly goes to His death -- which He calls His purpose at this hour.   My study bible calls it a mark of humanity to abhor death, hence Christ's troubled soul -- but He is without sin and completely subjects and unites His human will to the Father's divine will. 
 
"Father, glorify Your name."   Then a voice came from heaven, saying, "I have both glorified it and will glorify it again."   The Father's name is an extension of His Person, my study bible explains.  It says that the Son's death completes the purpose of the Father, and shows His love for all, thereby glorifying Him.   Christ effectively affirms to the Father, "Lead Me to the Cross."  My study bible calls this the Lord's divine response to the human prompting to avoid it.  The Father's response is a reference to the sign which Christ has performed throughout this Gospel, and also to His death and Resurrection to come.

Therefore the people who stood by and heard it said that it had thundered.  Others said, "An angel has spoken to Him."  Jesus answered and said, "This voice did not come because of Me, but for your sake."  Although the Father spoke clearly, my study bible remarks that some people heard indistinct sounds like thunder because they lacked faith.  Those with a little faith heard the words but did not know the source, and believed it was an angel.   But the disciples knew the Father Himself had spoken; note that Jesus says it was "for your sake," speaking to the disciples.

"Now is the judgment of this world; now the ruler of this world will be cast out.  And I, if I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all peoples to Myself."  This He said, signifying by what death He would die.  "Lifted up" is a reference to Christ being hung on the Cross, as Jesus also used this phrase in John 3:14-15, 8:28.  This death will bring salvation to all peoples, and at the same time will render judgment on the faithless, and destroy once and for all the power of Satan, the ruler of this world. 

The people answered Him, "We have heard from the law that the Christ remains forever; and how can You say, 'The Son of Man must be lifted up'?  Who is this Son of Man?"  Then Jesus said to them, "A little while longer the light is with you.  Walk while you have the light, lest darkness overtake you; he who walks in darkness does not know where he is going.  While you have the light, believe in the light, that you may become sons of light."  These things Jesus spoke, and departed, and was hidden from them.   My study bible says that once again, here the light refers to Christ (see also John 1:4-9, 8:12).   It says that there are many layers of meaning to Christ's teaching here.  First, He will be completing His public ministry shortly.  Moreover, our own lives are quite limited.  We have simply have a short time to repent and believe in Christ before death.  And finally, the return of Christ, or His second coming, is but a little while when it is compared to eternity.

In today's reading, Jesus says, "A little while longer the light is with you.  Walk while you have the light, lest darkness overtake you; he who walks in darkness does not know where he is going.  While you have the light, believe in the light, that you may become sons of light."   This continues the theme of earlier statements He's made as He has walked this road toward Jerusalem and this moment in the Gospel.   When the disciples asked him about the man born blind, "Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?"  Jesus replied, "Neither this man nor his parents sinned, but that the works of God should be revealed in him.  I must work the works of Him who sent Me while it is day; the night is coming when no one can work.  As long as I am in the world, I am the light of the world."   As Jesus set Himself for the journey to Lazarus in Bethany, the disciples feared going into Judea, asking Him, "Rabbi, lately the Jews sought to stone you, and are You going there again?"  Jesus answered, "Are there not twelve hours in the day?  If anyone walks in the day, he does not stumble, because he sees the light of this world.  But if one walks in the night, he stumbles, because the light is not in him."   Each of these statements, including the one in today's reading, indicate a "light" that illumines one's path in life.  Specifically, this is a spiritual light of wisdom from Christ, and would also include the enlightenment or guidance of the Spirit in our lives, the light of our faith.  Let us note that each time Jesus has used this phrase, it has been a time of courting danger and conflict, and specifically a deathly threat of hostility from the religious leaders who oppose Him.  Jesus is not simply speaking in sweet and kind terms about some kind of charmed or enchanted life and an easy road free from cares.  If we but look at the setting, and the road that He is on, the path He is taking, it suggests a much deeper and powerful story of courage and decisive action.  Jesus, in effect, walks toward the Cross, negotiating a road for Himself of certain conflict with the powerful religious leaders, and in the name of the truth.  His statements about the light make it clear that He does not walk this road from simple human courage or conviction, but because His will is united with the Father, and that in all things, He is united and cooperates with the Father.  He is following a higher and greater plan, serving some greater purpose -- and His death will have a meaning and power that no other will have.  Through His being "lifted up" on the Cross, He will conquer death itself -- and hence, Satan -- for all of us.  There is a lighted path He is following because even as He goes into the deepest darkness, and incurs an implacable wall of refusal for His message, fueled by both greed and envy, He goes in the light of God's promise, a purpose, and a mission.  This is not a grand idea He dreamed up to give Himself power or fueled dreams of the ego.  It is, instead, a purpose given by God, lived in the light of God's spirit and truth.  It's not a conventional story of warfare, or heroic battles on a battlefield, storms at sea, or climbing mountains and the inherent dangers of this world's natural forces.  It is, instead, a journey set by the light of God, the same light that is Christ the Son, and that of the third Person of the Trinity, the Holy Spirit.  And this is the lighted path which He invites all of us on when He tells us to take up our own crosses and follow Him.  This world will always present to us its dangers, and while Christ has conquered death and Satan, these forces still present themselves as active in our world.  It is through His light that we have the power to walk also and join the very particular fight Christ engaged in this world, from the very beginning of His ministry in going to the desert and tempted for forty days, and right through to the end.  But the difference for us is that we now have His light in which to engage and fight the good fight of faith, as St. Paul has indicated to us:  "Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, to which you were also called and have confessed the good confession in the presence of many witnesses" - 1 Timothy 6:12.  We are not promised a simple or charmed life, but rather one in which we may also walk according to the light.  We still walk in a world which has darkness in it, and one in which the light shines in the darkness, even though the darkness does not comprehend the light.  But we are invited into what St. Paul terms that "good fight," and to follow in Christ's footsteps with our own cross.  In today's reading, Jesus tells us plainly:  "Now is the judgment of this world; now the ruler of this world will be cast out."  Let us understand these things on the terms that Jesus has set for us, as we are invited into His courage, humility before God, and greater purpose for which we live and find our own self-expression, even for our own talents and gifts.  We are invited into this judgment, and the casting out of the ruler of this world.  But absolute humility is necessary for this fight, and the light of the guidance of Christ.  Lent is particularly a time to consider this paradox or dilemma, and Holy Week shows it to us in its starkest terms.  But here we are, nevertheless, in the light where we can walk.  And for this light we pray to shine in our lives, even among the darkness, and so that we may all become sons of light.






Thursday, September 17, 2020

Believe in the light, that you may become sons of light

 
 "Now My soul is troubled, and what shall I say?  'Father, save Me from this hour'?  But for this purpose I came to this hour.  Father, glorify Your name."  Then a voice came from heaven, saying, "I have both glorified it and will glorify it again."  Therefore the people who stood by and heard it said that it had thundered.  Others said, "An angel has spoken to Him."  Jesus answered and said, "This voice did not come because of Me, but for your sake.  Now is the judgment of this world; now the ruler of this world will be cast out.  And I, if I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all peoples to Myself."  This He said, signifying by what death He would die.  The people answered Him, "We have heard from the law that the Christ remains forever; and how can You say, 'The Son of Man must be lifted up'?  Who is this Son of Man?"  Then Jesus said to them, "A little while longer the light is with you.  Walk while you have the light, lest darkness overtake you; he who walks in darkness does not know where he is going.  While you have the light, believe in the light, that you may become sons of light."  These things Jesus spoke, and departed, and was hidden from them.
 
- John 12:27–36a 
 
Yesterday we read there were certain Greeks among those who came up to worship at the Passover feast.  Then they came to Philip, who was from Bethsaida of Galilee, and asked him, "Sir, we wish to see Jesus."  Philip came and told Andrew, and in turn Andrew and Philip told Jesus.  But Jesus answered them, saying, "The hour has come that the Son of Man should be glorified.  Most assuredly, I say to you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it produces much grain.  He who loves his life will lose it, and he who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life.  If anyone serves Me, let him follow Me; and where I am, there My servant will be also.  If anyone serves Me, him My Father will honor."
 
  "Now My soul is troubled, and what shall I say?  'Father, save Me from this hour'?  But for this purpose I came to this hour.  Father, glorify Your name."  Then a voice came from heaven, saying, "I have both glorified it and will glorify it again."  Jesus refers to His human soul, and that in His desire for life, He is in conflict with what the Father wants of Him.  But in all things, He is obedient and unified to the Father.  My study bible explains that the Father's name is an extension of His Person.  The Son's death completes the purpose of the Father, showing God's love for all and thus glorifying God.   It paraphrases Christ as saying, "Father, lead Me to the Cross."  This is Christ's divine response to the human impulse to avoid the Cross.  The Father's response refers to the signs already performed by Christ, and to the death and Resurrection to come.  

Therefore the people who stood by and heard it said that it had thundered.  Others said, "An angel has spoken to Him."  Jesus answered and said, "This voice did not come because of Me, but for your sake."  My study bible comments that although the Father spoke clearly, some people heard indistinct sounds like thunder, because they lacked faith.  Those with a little faith heard the words but did not know the source, thinking it was an angel.  The disciples knew that it was the Father who had spoken.

"Now is the judgment of this world; now the ruler of this world will be cast out.  And I, if I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all peoples to Myself."  This He said, signifying by what death He would die.  To be lifted up is another reference to Christ being hung on the Cross (see also 3:14-15, 8:28).   This death, my study bible says, will bring salvation to all peoples, while at the same time rendering judgment on the faithless and destroying once for all the power of Satan, the ruler of this world.

The people answered Him, "We have heard from the law that the Christ remains forever; and how can You say, 'The Son of Man must be lifted up'?  Who is this Son of Man?"  Then Jesus said to them, "A little while longer the light is with you.  Walk while you have the light, lest darkness overtake you; he who walks in darkness does not know where he is going.  While you have the light, believe in the light, that you may become sons of light."  These things Jesus spoke, and departed, and was hidden from them.  My study bible tells us that the light refers to Christ (see also 1:4-9, 8:12).   It says that Christ's teaching here has several facets of meaning.  First, Christ will soon be completing His public ministry.  Moreover, our own lives are quite limited; we have a short time to repent and to believe in Christ before death.   And then, finally, the second coming of Christ is but a little while when we compare it to eternity.

Jesus refers to Himself once again as the light.  His is the guiding light for us to follow.  His words are light, and they are life.  He shows us the way.  How is this true in your life?  As we listen to Jesus in today's reading, we observe His dedication to the will of the Father.  He will go to the Cross, although His human soul resists it, in order to fulfill His mission.  But He knows the Father is love, and He knows that He goes to the Cross for judgment.  Jesus says of this hour of the Cross:  "Now is the judgment of this world; now the ruler of this world will be cast out."    There is no doubt of the link between the Cross and judgment:  the "judgment of this world" is also the time "the ruler of this world will be cast out."  His is the light that casts out the ruler of darkness.  At the same time, Christ is lifted up as the One who will draw all peoples toward Himself.   The implication is that He comes to bring a shift into the world, a displacement of the "ruler of this world" whom He casts out by being lifted up on the Cross, whose place He will take as He draws all peoples to Himself.  We who live in this time as we await His return are in the midst of that transition.  It is hard to see, and we may become lost in despair and sadness at what we see in our world, be might become frightened and disheartened, but nevertheless this is His message to us.  He is working to replace that cruel, evil, hard ruler of this world who could be behind the suffering and death of the sinless person who loved us and died for us.  If we continue to see the effects of evil in our world, we need to hear the words of St. Peter, reminding us what the Psalmist teaches:  "But, beloved, do not forget this one thing, that with the Lord one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day" (2 Peter 3:8, Psalm 90:4).  We are all in this crucible, the time of the Cross initiated by Christ's being lifted up.  We either stand in His light to witness His truth, or we reject it for ourselves.  We are all in this world together, but we know that His message to us is to endure, to stand firm in the ways we are taught, to walk while we have the light, and to become sons of light.  Let us remember this every time we look around, every time we find things that disturb our quiet, when our souls are troubled and let us know that the shadow of darkness is still in some forms with us.  We would do well to remember that every step we take following His light becomes a part of witnessing for Him, a part of the judgment of which He speaks.  Let us remember today His words that are still so powerful and remain true with us, who seek to follow Him and become sons of light.