What is that to us? You see to it!

 

 When morning came, all the chief priests and elders of the people plotted against Jesus to put Him to death.  And when they had bound Him, they led Him away and delivered Him to Pontius Pilate the governor.  

 

Then Judas, His betrayer, seeing that He had been condemned, was remorseful and brought back the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and elders, saying, "I have sinned by betraying innocent blood."  And they said, "What is that to us?  You see to it!"  Then he threw down the pieces of silver in the temple and departed, and went and hanged himself.  But the chief priests took the silver pieces and said, "It is not lawful to put them into the treasury, because they are the price of blood."  And they consulted together and bought with them the potter's field, to bury strangers in.  Therefore that field has been called the Field of Blood to this day.  Then was fulfilled what was spoken by Jeremiah the prophet, saying, "And they took the thirty pieces of silver, the value of Him who was priced, whom they the children of Israel priced, and gave them for the potter's field, as the LORD directed me."

 

- Matthew 27:1–10 

 

Yesterday we read Peter sat outside in the courtyard while Jesus was on trial inside the home of the high priest.  And a servant girl came to him, saying, "You also were with Jesus of Galilee."  But he denied it before them all, saying, "I do not know what you are saying."  And when he had gone out to the gateway, another girl saw him and said to those who were there, "This fellow also was with Jesus of Nazareth."  But again he denied with an oath, "I do not know the Man!"  And a little later those who stood by came up and said to Peter, "Surely you also are one of them, for your speech betrays you."  Then he began to curse and swear, saying, "I do not know the Man!"  Immediately a rooster crowed.  And Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So he went out and wept bitterly. 

 

When morning came, all the chief priests and elders of the people plotted against Jesus to put Him to death.  And when they had bound Him, they led Him away and delivered Him to Pontius Pilate the governor.  My study Bible explains that the religious Law dictated the death penalty for blasphemers (under which Jesus was convicted in the night trial at the home of the high priest -- see Leviticus 24:16).  But under Roman occupation, the Jews were prohibited from carrying out an execution.  So, therefore, they had to get permission from the governor, Pontius Pilate. 

 

 Then Judas, His betrayer, seeing that He had been condemned, was remorseful and brought back the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and elders, saying, "I have sinned by betraying innocent blood."  And they said, "What is that to us?  You see to it!"  Then he threw down the pieces of silver in the temple and departed, and went and hanged himself.  But the chief priests took the silver pieces and said, "It is not lawful to put them into the treasury, because they are the price of blood."  And they consulted together and bought with them the potter's field, to bury strangers in.  Therefore that field has been called the Field of Blood to this day.  Then was fulfilled what was spoken by Jeremiah the prophet, saying, "And they took the thirty pieces of silver, the value of Him who was priced, whom they the children of Israel priced, and gave them for the potter's field, as the LORD directed me."  In contrast to Peter, who repented in his sorrow (Matthew 26:75; see yesterday's reading, above), Judas is remorseful, but does not repent, my study Bible says.  It explains that suicide is not a sign of repentance, but of being self-absorbed.  There are two accounts given of Judas' suicide in the New Testament, here and in Acts 1:16-19.  

 

In yesterday's reading and commentary, we discussed the reality of St. Peter's repentance.  He cried bitter tears at the realization of what he had done.  My study Bible explains above that Judas is remorseful, but not repentant.  This invites us to examine what repentance is.  Its fundamental basis isn't simply shame or disappointment in ourselves.  Repentance is meant to bring us closer to God.  As such, we can understand St. Peter's return to Jesus and the rest of the disciples as a return in trust and love.  This is what is missing here for Judas, for he returns to the religious leaders who have no love and feel no compassion, neither do they offer him help for his sin.  They say to him, "What is that to us?  You see to it!"  This is quite something, as they were the ones who paid him the money to betray innocent blood.  The significance of blood plays its part throughout the Law and the practices of the temple, and of course also in the Crucifixion and our Eucharist in the Divine Liturgy.  In Numbers 35:33 we read, "So you shall not pollute the land where you are; for blood defiles the land, and no atonement can be made for the land, for the blood that is shed on it, except by the blood of him who shed it."   It's noteworthy that, according to St. Matthew, Jesus has not yet been condemned by Pilate, but only by the Sanhedrin.  Perhaps Judas takes his own judgment and punishment into his own hands in his suicide.  Perhaps the powerful significance of betrayal now makes its mark on him.  But we know of the efforts Christ has made to save him, right up until the moment of betrayal (Matthew 26:48-50).  We can all imagine the seeming impossibility of returning to Christ and the disciples.  But Judas' condition reminds us all that to be forgiven in terms of Christ's capacity as Judge means to return to Him and to give our sin to Him to resolve; outside of Christ there is no Judge who can remit sin, and outside of Christ there is no light to direct us in our lives that follow.  Judas instead has returned to the religious leaders with his money and they can and will do nothing for him.  Thus, his life is at a dead end.  We should remember, in thinking about this terrible crime, that Christ from the Cross has given forgiveness, only to be realized through our repentance, through a return to Him.  For, if He the Innocent has taken all the world upon Himself at the Cross, it is only to teach us that we must come to Him with our own wounds and injuries, which include the damages to our souls incurred through our sins as well as those sins done to us.  Most importantly, it is Jesus who will shed His blood "for many for the remission of sins" (Matthew 26:28), and He included Judas in that first cup of the New Covenant.  His blood is the atoning, covering sacrifice for all.  Judas' return of the money therefore cannot erase or reverse the sin, and neither do the heartless leaders have a solution to offer him.  Instead in their legalism they purchase a field in which to bury strangers, which does not cleanse them of their sin either.  Only Christ can properly lead us out of sin, and only Christ would have the way forward even for Judas.  In any case, speculation is moot, for we know what has happened and what Christ foresaw.  Nonetheless, to repeat, Christ made all efforts to save Judas, and we should take that as a nod to the freedom we have to change our minds, which is literally the meaning of the word in the Gospels translated as "repentance."  Let us turn to Him not only with our beauty, but also offer to Him the wounds we carry, even the things we hide from ourselves, for He is the One to show us the way through them and beyond.  For His are the wounds of love for us all.