I do not know the Man!

 

 Now Peter sat outside in the courtyard.  And a servant girl came to him, saying, "You also were with Jesus of Galilee."  But he denied it before them all, saying, "I do not know what you are saying."  And when he had gone out to the gateway, another girl saw him and said to those who were there, "This fellow also was with Jesus of Nazareth."  But again he denied with an oath, "I do not know the Man!"  And a little later those who stood by came up and said to Peter, "Surely you also are one of them, for your speech betrays you."  Then he began to curse and swear, saying, "I do not know the Man!"  Immediately a rooster crowed.  And Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So he went out and wept bitterly. 

 

- Matthew 26:69–75 

 

Yesterday we read that those who had laid hold of Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane led Him away to Caiaphas the high priest, where the scribes and the elders were assembled.  But Peter followed Him at a distance to the high priest's courtyard.  And he went in and sat with the servants to see the end.  Now the chief priests, the elders, and all the council sought false testimony against Jesus to put Him to death, but found none.  Even though many false witnesses came forward, they found none.  But at last two false witnesses came forward and said, "This fellow said, 'I am able to destroy the temple of God and to build it in three days.'"  And the high priest arose and said to Him, "Do You answer nothing?  What is it these men testify against You?"  But Jesus kept silent.  And the high priest answered and said to Him, "I put You under oath by the living God:  Tell us if You are the Christ, the Son of God!"  Jesus said to him, "It is as you said.  Nevertheless, I say to you, hereafter you will see the Son of Man sitting at the hand of the Power, and coming on the clouds of heaven."  Then the high priest tore his clothes, saying, "He has spoken blasphemy!  What further need do we have of witnesses?  Look, now you have heard His blasphemy!  What do you think?"  They answered and said, "He is deserving of death."  Then they spat in His face and beat Him; and others struck Him with the palms of their hands, saying, "Prophesy to us, Christ!  Who is the one who struck You?"

 

 Now Peter sat outside in the courtyard.  And a servant girl came to him, saying, "You also were with Jesus of Galilee."  But he denied it before them all, saying, "I do not know what you are saying."  My study Bible comments here that a girl being the first to test Peter is an icon of the temptation of Adam by Eve (Genesis 3:6).  It notes that our fallen state is overcome in Christ when we shall see that it is women who are the first to hear, believe, and proclaim the Resurrection (Matthew 28:1-10).  

 

And when he had gone out to the gateway, another girl saw him and said to those who were there, "This fellow also was with Jesus of Nazareth."  But again he denied with an oath, "I do not know the Man!"   And a little later those who stood by came up and said to Peter, "Surely you also are one of them, for your speech betrays you."  That his speech betrays him is said by this second girl because St. Peter speaks in the dialect or accent of the Galilean region, where both he and Jesus are from.  Jerusalem is in Judea.

 

Then he began to curse and swear, saying, "I do not know the Man!"  Immediately a rooster crowed.  And Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So he went out and wept bitterly.  In St. Luke's Gospel, we're given the detail that, following the rooster's crow, Jesus -- who is inside on trial at the home of the high priest, while St. Peter is in the courtyard -- gazes at St. Peter outside (Luke 22:60-62).  According to that account, Peter is so overcome with fear that neither Jesus' earlier prediction (Matthew 26:31-35), nor even the rooster crowing, call him to repentance, but only the Lord's gaze causes him to weep bitterly.  St. Ambrose of Milan is cited by my study Bible, who writes that nonetheless, "through tears, what cannot be defended can be purged, for tears wash away the offense which is shameful to confess out loud."

 

 St. Peter betrays himself, even as he denies Christ three times, as Jesus Himself predicted (see Matthew 26:31-35).  This is most humiliating for St. Peter, as it happens despite the fact that at that time, he claimed to Jesus -- and before all the rest of the disciples -- "Even if all are made to stumble because of You, I will never be made to stumble."  It was after this statement that Jesus told him that, indeed, before the rooster crowed that morning, St. Peter would deny Jesus three times.  But St. Peter only replied, "Even if I have to die with You, I will not deny You!"  Therefore St. Peter's bitter tears cry out his humiliation and failure, the bitter understanding that he has failed himself, his Lord, and his own claim of bold allegiance before all.  There's more to this story that merits our understanding.  In proclaiming his allegiance to Jesus, he contradicted Jesus Himself when he was told that he would deny Christ three times.  It is a bold thing indeed, to deny a prophecy of Christ -- particularly about oneself!  Bold and foolish, for no one knows us like Christ knows us.  Oftentimes we are the ones who know ourselves very little; like St. Peter, our own image of ourselves hides a blindness to our weaknesses and temptations.  It is certain that St. Peter fully believed what he was saying to Christ and in front of the other disciples; most truly he believed that his courage would not fail him, nor would he be unable to muster that boldness to confess Christ even if all others failed.  And yet, we see his weakness before a servant girl and the others.  St. Peter's denial perhaps tells us something important about his character that is repeated in a few other places:  he's susceptible to the pressure of the group, his people.  When loyalties are tested, that is his temptation.  He shows this as a part of his character that will be criticized by St. Paul, when he temporarily stopped eating with Gentile Christians out of fear of the criticism of Jewish believers who did not wish to sit with those who were uncircumcised (see Galatians 2:11-13).  According to St. Paul, others were led astray into hypocrisy through this, even St. Barnabas as well.  As all of these details are included in Scripture, they all serve as mirror and warning to us all not to take temptation lightly, and to have the humility to know ourselves.  Of course, perhaps the best place to find the places we're vulnerable is through the practice of our faith in all ways possible, and through prayer.  Jesus teaches, "I tell you the truth, unless you turn from your sins and become like little children, you will never get into the Kingdom of Heaven" (Matthew 18:3), and this lesson St. Peter fails when he does not heed Jesus warning about his three-time denial.  It is as little children -- plastic and malleable, receptive to learn -- that we are to come to Christ and learn from Him as disciples, and to grow in His image.  Part of that growth toward deeper faith and fuller union with Christ is to become aware of our weaknesses and vulnerabilities so that we guard against them -- and most certainly becoming like a little child in this sense is to learn the attitude of humility before the Lord.  In that sense, we trust that God knows us better than we know ourselves, and though we are led on paths that might not be comfortable, we are led to growth and to spiritual maturity through this process.  St. Peter is learning the hard way here, and with bitterness, but this is a story that easily applies to us all at one time or another -- and thus we find it in the Gospels.  It teaches us about our faith that St. Peter himself, one of the pillars of the Church and "first among equals" of the apostles, failed and grappled with his own imperfection.  But we should be grateful that his bitter tears are memorized in the Gospels for us, so that when we fail, we learn from him, for his love and repentance will send him back to the Lord, as St. John tells us in a most poignant passage of his Gospel (see John 21:15-22). For St. Peter, who endured even a terrible rebuke from Jesus, also has a capacity for humility which serves him well indeed!  In the fullness of Christ's love, we have nothing to fear.  May we all find such grace.