But this is your hour, and the power of darkness

 

 Then Jesus said to the chief priests, captains of the temple, and the elders who had come to Him, "Have you come out, as against a robber, with swords and clubs?  When I was with you daily in the temple, you did not try to seize Me.  But this is your hour, and the power of darkness."

 

Having arrested Him, they led Him and brought Him into the high priest's house.  But Peter followed at a distance.  Now when they had kindled a fire in the midst of the courtyard and sat down together, Peter sat among them.  And a certain servant girl, seeing him as he sat by the fire, looked intently at him and said, "This man was also with Him."  But he denied Him, saying, "Woman, I do not know Him."  And after a little while another saw him and said, "You also are of them."  But Peter said, "Man, I am not!"  Then after about an hour had passed, another confidently affirmed, saying, "Surely this fellow also was with Him, for he is a Galilean."  But Peter said, "Man, I do not know what you are saying!"  Immediately, while he was still speaking, the rooster crowed.  And the Lord turned and looked at Peter.  Then Peter remembered the word of the Lord, how He had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So Peter went out and wept bitterly.

 

- Luke 22:52–62 

 

On Saturday, we read that coming out from the temple in Jerusalem, Jesus went to the Mount of Olives, as He was accustomed, and His disciples also followed Him.  When He came to the place, He said to them, "Pray that you may not enter into temptation."  And He was withdrawn from them about a stone's throw, and He knelt down and prayed, saying, "Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from Me; nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done."  Then an angel appeared to Him from heaven, strengthening Him.  And being in agony, He prayed more earnestly.  Then His sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground.  When He rose up from prayer, and had come to His disciples, He found them sleeping from sorrow.  Then He said to them, "Why do you sleep?  Rise and pray, lest you enter into temptation." And while He was still speaking, behold, a multitude; and he who was called Judas, one of the twelve, went before  them and drew near to Jesus to kiss Him.  But Jesus said to him, "Judas, are you betraying the Son of Man with a kiss?"  When those around Him saw what was going to happen, they said to Him, "Lord, shall we strike with the sword?"  And one of them struck the servant of the high priest and cut off his right ear.  But Jesus answered and said, "Permit even this."  And He touched his ear and healed him.

 

  Then Jesus said to the chief priests, captains of the temple, and the elders who had come to Him, "Have you come out, as against a robber, with swords and clubs?  When I was with you daily in the temple, you did not try to seize Me.  But this is your hour, and the power of darkness."   For our understanding of darkness in this context, my study Bible refers us to John 3:19-21; 13:30.  In these contexts, we observe that the power of darkness is that which resists the light, the true light that has come into the world, Jesus Christ, who is Light of Light (Nicene Creed).

 

 Having arrested Him, they led Him and brought Him into the high priest's house.  But Peter followed at a distance.  Now when they had kindled a fire in the midst of the courtyard and sat down together, Peter sat among them.  And a certain servant girl, seeing him as he sat by the fire, looked intently at him and said, "This man was also with Him."  But he denied Him, saying, "Woman, I do not know Him."   My study Bible comments on the fact that it is a girl who is the first to test Peter.  In patristic understanding, this is an icon of the temptation of Adam by Eve in Genesis 3:6.  Our fallen state, it notes, is overcome in Christ when women are the first to hear, believe, and proclaim the Resurrection (see Luke 24:1-10).  

 

 And after a little while another saw him and said, "You also are of them."  But Peter said, "Man, I am not!"  Then after about an hour had passed, another confidently affirmed, saying, "Surely this fellow also was with Him, for he is a Galilean."  But Peter said, "Man, I do not know what you are saying!"  Immediately, while he was still speaking, the rooster crowed.  And the Lord turned and looked at Peter.  Then Peter remembered the word of the Lord, how He had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So Peter went out and wept bitterly.  My study Bible notes that Peter is so overcome with fear that neither Christ's prediction (Luke 22:34) nor the crowing of the rooster calls him to repentance.  Only the gaze of the Lord causes Peter to weep bitterly.  St. Ambrose of Milan is quoted, who says that, nonetheless, "through tears, what cannot be defended can be purged, for tears wash away the offense which is shameful to confess out loud." 

 

What do we do when we have done something that seems unforgivable -- and most of all, unforgivable to ourselves?   Just prior to Christ's seizure by the authorities, He said to Peter, "Satan has asked for you, that he may sift you as wheat.  But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail . . .."  But Peter responded to Him, "Lord, I am ready to go with You, both to prison and to death."  See Luke 22:31-34.  But here, even before a servant girl, the first to spot Peter as a follower of Christ, he wavers and caves to his fears, denying that he was a disciple.  A man then affirms that he was one of them, and Peter denies it again.  Finally, another affirms that it must be so, due to Peter's Galilean accent he recognizes, Jesus' disciples having followed Him from Galilee.  It's only the gaze of Christ that causes Peter to come to himself, and to realize what he has done.  He hasn't simply denied Christ, he has also betrayed himself in so doing.  We can only imagine what it is to confidently predict what steadfast people we are, how we will uphold our values or principles, we will always be loyal and never waver -- and then, just like that, we are tested and we fail even in our own eyes.  No wonder Peter went out and wept bitterly.  Not only has Peter failed himself and, more importantly, His Lord, Peter's overconfidence came in the face of Christ's prophecy to him.  When we look at this story this way, we see that Christ, of course, was not trying to bring Peter down or even to criticize him, but to forewarn him of the test and temptation to come, to solemnly warn him of his own weaknesses and his need to be conscious of them.  How many of us could confess to making similar mistakes in our lives, only to have to come to terms with how we have come up short?  Certainly this author can say so.  But for St. Peter, for myself, and one may dare say for all, Christ is the answer to our bitter failures and shortcomings.  For Jesus, as He indeed indicated, still wants St. Peter for his mission.  Even if we fail in our own eyes, and in the eyes of the world, our disappointment is only really tempered through Christ, who has a place for us, a plan, a way to go forward.  That means is through repentance, through turning back to Christ through all things, and accepting the reality He offers us.  That is, just as in this specific case we're given in the Gospels with St. Peter, we need to accept His judgment instead of our own -- even on ourselves as well.  Jesus also predicts to Peter, ". . . when you have returned to Me, strengthen your brethren."  There is a very important lesson here about our faith, about confidence in ourselves, about our own judgment and estimation of our own potential weaknesses.  But most of all, it also tells us about temptation, for the devil who wanted to sift Peter as wheat apparently helped bring along the means of the failure of his faith, a way to trip him up in his weakness.  But with Christ, such stumbling blocks become opportunities for growth and for the strengthening of our faith, in that we become more aware of who we are, grow in helpful knowledge of our weaknesses, and may always turn and return to Him in repentance so that He shows us the way for us to the future and a better destiny and life.  St. Peter, of course, went on to have remarkable faith, going to his martyrdom for Christ, finally true to his word.  But before that he became a pillar of the Church, part of the foundation as the "rock" that Jesus named him, giving to us in turn a faith against which the gates of hades could not prevail (Matthew 16:18).  Yesterday, across the world and across many denominations, was the Feast of the Holy Apostles Peter and Paul.  Let us be truly grateful for the foundation they gave us, and follow in their footsteps as faithful to Christ.  For we all may be tested by the power of darkness, but with Christ it shall never prevail.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times." So he went out and wept bitterly

 

Now Peter sat outside in the courtyard.  And a servant girl came to him, saying, "You also were with Jesus of Galilee."  But he denied it before them all, saying, "I do not know what you are saying."  And when he had gone out to the gateway, another girl saw him and said to those who were there, "This fellow also was with Jesus of Nazareth."  But again he denied with an oath, "I do not know the Man!"  And a little later those who stood by came up and said to Peter, "Surely you also are one of them, for your speech betrays you."  Then he began to curse and swear, saying, "I do not know the Man!"  Immediately a rooster crowed.  And Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So he went out and wept bitterly.

 

- Matthew 26:69-75

 

Yesterday we read that those who had laid hold of Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane led Him away to Caiaphas the high priest, where the scribes and the elders were assembled.  But Peter followed Him at a distance to the high priest's courtyard.  And he went in and sat with the servants to see the end.  Now the chief priests, the elders, and all the councils sought false testimony against Jesus to put Him to death, but found none.  Even though many false witnesses came forward, they found none.  But at last two false witnesses came forward and said, "This fellow said, 'I am able to destroy the temple of God and to build it in three days.'"  And the high priest arose and said to Him, "Do You answer nothing?  What is it these men testify against You?"  But Jesus kept silent.  And the high priest answered and said to Him, "I put You under oath by the living God:  Tell us if You are the Christ, the Son of God!"  Jesus said to him, "It is as you said.  Nevertheless, I say to you, hereafter you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of the Power, and coming on the clouds of heaven."  Then the high priest tore his clothes, saying, "He has spoken blasphemy!  What further need do we have of witnesses?  Look, now you have heard His blasphemy!  What do you think?"  They answered and said, "He is deserving of death."  Then they spat in His face and beat Him; and others struck Him with the palms of their hands, saying, "Prophesy to us, Christ!  Who is the one who struck You?"

 

 Now Peter sat outside in the courtyard.  And a servant girl came to him, saying, "You also were with Jesus of Galilee."  But he denied it before them all, saying, "I do not know what you are saying."  My study Bible comments on the report that it is a girl who is the first to test Peter.  It notes that this is considered an icon of the temptation of Adam by Eve (Genesis 3:6).  It says that our fallen state is overcome in Christ when women are the first to hear, believe, and proclaim the Resurrection (Luke 24:1-10).  

And when he had gone out to the gateway, another girl saw him and said to those who were there, "This fellow also was with Jesus of Nazareth."  But again he denied with an oath, "I do not know the Man!"  And a little later those who stood by came up and said to Peter, "Surely you also are one of them, for your speech betrays you."  Then he began to curse and swear, saying, "I do not know the Man!"  Immediately a rooster crowed.  And Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So he went out and wept bitterly.  Peter is so overcome with fear, my study Bible notes, that through these three people questioning him as to his relation to Christ, he did not recall Christ's prediction nor come to repentance.  But the crow of the rooster causes him to remember.  As St. Luke reports this story, it is the gaze of Christ from within the home of the high priest which causes him to weep bitterly (Luke 22:61-62).  

Let us note that Peter's denial of Christ is not a simple matter of simply staying silent and moving away, but the second time he's questioned, he actually denied knowing Christ with an oath.   The third time he's questioned, moreover, he began to curse and swear to make an even more vehement denial.   To our modern ears, these may seem like vehement embellishments of speech, emotionally digging himself in to make his denial seem more significant.  But in the Bible oaths and swearing are taken quite seriously, for these are seen as commitments one makes with one's word before the Lord.  Jesus has taught, in the Sermon on the Mount, "Again you have heard that it was said to those of old, 'You shall not swear falsely, but shall perform your oaths to the Lord.' But I say to you, do not swear at all: neither by heaven, for it is God’s throne; nor by the earth, for it is His footstool; nor by Jerusalem, for it is the city of the great King. Nor shall you swear by your head, because you cannot make one hair white or black. But let your 'Yes' be 'Yes,' and your 'No,' 'No.' For whatever is more than these is from the evil one" (Matthew 5:33-37).  So, in a certain sense, Peter is not just simply denying knowing Christ, but he is even disobeying His commands to His disciples.  The other example we have in the Gospels of someone so carried away by his passions that he swears a rash oath, with disastrous consequences, is King Herod Antipas (see this reading).  So the denial of Christ by Peter is an occasion upon which we have to reflect what it means that Jesus teaches us not to swear at all, because our simple words must suffice for the power of truth.  So important is this understanding of our word and the importance of its truth, the Lord teaches us that swearing and oaths are vain -- and more than "Yes" or "No" is from the evil one.  Clearly Peter's emotions have put him in a place where he's without the balance to even recall Christ's words to him earlier in the evening, and so this becomes a cautionary tale to us.  If even the great St. Peter, leader among the apostles, can be so easily thrown off his guard and fail to remember his devotion to Christ, then what about the rest of us?  Let's recall Peter's words to Jesus earlier in this evening:  "Even if all are made to stumble because of You, I will never be made to stumble," and, "Even if I have to die with You, I will not deny You!" (see Matthew 26:31-35).  There's another essential, important lesson we can learn from Peter's denial, and that is in his tremendous capacity for humility.  We recall the powerful rebuke given to him by Jesus, when Peter protested that Jesus should not die:  "Get behind Me, Satan!" (see Matthew 16:22-24).  Can we imagine such a word from Christ, in front of the rest of the disciples?  And yet, Peter did not turn away, but accepted.  From this humiliating and bitter failure, Peter will also return to the disciples, and for his true repentance be also specifically forgiven and received by Christ.  So, in the telling of this story, we also have St. Peter's saving humility, inseparable from his capacity for repentance, and from his genuine love of Christ.  But we're taught, also, not to trust in ourselves to the point that we're unaware of our own vulnerabilities and weakness under strain.  Let us once again consider how Christ teaches us the true power of our word, to be aware of the things we swear, the heat of the moment, and the challenges to our honor or standing in front of others.  Let us, indeed, endeavor to remember to keep it simple.  The capacity for humility is perhaps the greatest tool we have for saving grace, for finding our way through the difficult struggles and pressures we encounter in life, and in the carrying of our cross of faith. 

 

 

And Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times." So he went out and wept bitterly

 

Now Peter sat outside in the courtyard.  And a servant girl came to him, saying, "You also were with Jesus of Galilee."  But he denied it before them all, saying, "I do not know what you are saying."  And when he had gone out to the gateway, another girl saw him and said to those who were there, "This fellow also was with Jesus of Nazareth."  But again he denied with an oath, "I do not know the Man!"  And a little later those who stood by came up and said to Peter, "Surely you also are one of them, for your speech betrays you."  Then he began to curse and swear, saying, "I do not know the Man!"   Immediately a rooster crowed.  And Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So he went out and wept bitterly.

 

- Matthew 26:69-75 

 

Yesterday we read that those who had laid hold of Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane led Him away to Caiaphas the high priest, where the scribes and the elders were assembled.  But Peter followed Him at a distance to the high priest's courtyard.  And he went in and sat with the servants to see the end.  Now the chief priests, the elders, and all the council sought false testimony against Jesus to put Him to death, but found none.  Even though many false witnesses came forward, they found none.  But at last two false witnesses came forward and said, "This fellow said, 'I am able to destroy the temple of God and to build it in three days.'"  And the high priest arose and said to Him, "Do You answer nothing?  What is it these men testify against You?"  But Jesus kept silent.  And the high priest answered and said to Him, "I put You under oath by the living God:  Tell us if You are the Christ, the Son of God!"  Jesus said to him, "It is as you said.  Nevertheless, I say to you, hereafter you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of the Power, and coming on the clouds of heaven."  Then the high priest tore his clothes, saying, "He has spoken blasphemy!  What further need do we have of witnesses?  Look, now you have heard His blasphemy!  What do you think?"  They answered and said, "He is deserving of death."  Then they spat in His face and beat Him; and others struck Him with the palms of their hands, saying, "Prophesy to us, Christ!  Who is the one who struck You?"

 

 Now Peter sat outside in the courtyard.  And a servant girl came to him, saying, "You also were with Jesus of Galilee."  But he denied it before them all, saying, "I do not know what you are saying."  My study Bible comments that a girl being the first to test Peter is an icon of the temptation of Adam by Eve in Genesis 3:6.  It says that our fallen state is overcome in Christ when it is women who are the first to hear, believe, and proclaim the Resurrection (Luke 24:1-10).  

And when he had gone out to the gateway, another girl saw him and said to those who were there, "This fellow also was with Jesus of Nazareth."  But again he denied with an oath, "I do not know the Man!"  And a little later those who stood by came up and said to Peter, "Surely you also are one of them, for your speech betrays you."  Then he began to curse and swear, saying, "I do not know the Man!"   Immediately a rooster crowed.  And Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So he went out and wept bitterly.  My study Bible comments that in this scenario in the courtyard, Peter is so overcome with fear that Christ's earlier prediction (see Matthew 26:31-35, especially verse 34) does nothing to make him aware of what he is doing until he hears the crowing of the rooster, and he remembers Christ's word.  In St. Luke's version of these events, it is only the gaze of Christ that calls Peter back to remembrance (Luke 22:61-62).  His remembrance causes him to weep bitterly.  St. Ambrose of Milan comments that nevertheless, "through tears, what cannot be defended can be purged, for tears wash away the offense which is shameful to confess out loud."

Peter weeps, purging his sin in true repentance, and realizing the truth of what he had done.  We recall his words to Christ on the night Christ predicted all the disciples would be made to stumble because of Him:   "Even if all are made to stumble because of You, I will never be made to stumble," and "Even if I have to die with You, I will not deny You!" (Matthew 26:33, 35).  These declarations, although vehement, in the end did nothing to prevent just such a scenario from happening.  Peter's own weakness is on display to himself, his denial plainly a denial of his own vulnerability and fears, and thus he weeps bitterly at having realized what he's done.  But Peter is our picture of courage and strength nonetheless.  He is a leader among the apostles.  We know his weaknesses and his exuberance.  In John's Gospel, Peter first declares to Jesus at the Last Supper, "You shall never wash my feet!"  But when Jesus tells him, "If I do not wash you, you have no part with Me," Peter changes altogether, and demands, "Lord, not my feet only, but also my hands and my head!" (John 13:3-9).  When Jesus first predicts His own death, Peter declares, "Far be it from You, Lord; this shall not happen to You!"  We understand Peter's denials in this case, but it simply leads to a stunning rebuke by Jesus:  "Get behind Me, Satan! You are an offense to Me, for you are not mindful of the things of God, but the things of men" (see Matthew 16:21-23).  In the end of John's Gospel, Peter is directed by Jesus what he should do, and even given a preview of his courageous death.  But then he goes on to ask what the beloved disciple, John, must do, saying, "But Lord, what about this man?"  Jesus answers him by asking, "What is that to you?  You follow Me"  (see John 21:15-25).  In so many examples in the Gospels, Peter is the one, although a leader among the Twelve, and certainly a leader to come after Christ's death, who shows the weaknesses of human beings, our fallibilities, the one who stumbles through exuberance and emotion.  And yet, Peter is the one who comes to terms with his own failure in humility, recognizing how he has stumbled and disappointed himself.   In Peter we find both greatness and humility, the capacity for leadership of the fledgling Church that would soon spread to the entire known world, and yet the humility to be corrected.  And perhaps it is just this humility that gave Peter his greatest strength, for he is the one who could endure a rebuke of Christ and persist, and remain true to his calling despite Christ's prediction of Peter's own death by crucifixion (John 21:18-19).  I can speak for no one but myself, but I would venture to say that many (if not all) of us have parts of ourselves of which we're ashamed or embarrassed, aspects of weakness and vulnerability we'd not care to see nor to admit.  But Peter's strength is in acceptance of this truth about himself, even if accompanied by bitter tears.  For it enables him repeatedly to return to Christ, to find correction in repentance, to carry on and to manifest his position as leader in the early Church, "first among equals."  Let us find also his courage and humility, and his capacity for turning back to Christ, for it is a saving grace, the strength that restores us to our proper relation to Christ when we've stumbled.

 

 

 

 

 

 

And Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times." So he went out and wept bitterly

Rembrandt van Rijn. The Denial of Peter. 1660, Rijksmuseum Amsterdam

 Now Peter sat outside in the courtyard.  And a servant girl came to him, saying, "You also were with Jesus of Galilee."  But he denied it before them all, saying, "I do not know what you are saying."  And when he had gone out to the gateway, another girl saw him and said to those who were there, "This fellow also was with Jesus of Nazareth."  But again he denied with an oath, "I do not know the Man!"  And a little later those who stood by came up and said to Peter, "Surely you are also one of them, for your speech betrays you."  Then he began to curse and swear, saying, "I do not know the Man!"  Immediately a rooster crowed.  And Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So he went out and wept bitterly.

- Matthew 26:69-75

Yesterday we read that those who had laid hold of Jesus led Him away to Caiaphas the high priest, where the scribes and the elders were assembled.  But Peter followed Him at a distance to the high priest's courtyard.  And he went in and sat with the servants to see the end.  Now the chief priests, the elders, and all the council sought false testimony against Jesus to put Him to death, but found none.  Even though many false witnesses came forward, they found none.  But at last two false witnesses came forward and said, "This fellow said, 'I am able to destroy the temple of God and to build it in three days.'"  And the high priest arose and said to Him, "Do You answer nothing?  What is it these men testify against You?"  But Jesus kept silent.  And the high priest answered and said to Him, "I put You under oath by the living God:  Tell us if You are the Christ, the Son of God!"  Jesus said to him, "It is as you said.  Nevertheless, I say to you, hereafter you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of the Power, and coming on the clouds of heaven."  Then the high priest tore his clothes, saying, "He has spoken blasphemy!  What further need do we have of witnesses?  Look, now you have heard His blasphemy!  What do you think?"  They answered and said, "He is deserving of death."  Then they spat in His face and beat Him; and others struck Him with the palms of their hands, saying, "Prophesy to us, Christ!  Who is the one who struck You?"

 Now Peter sat outside in the courtyard.  And a servant girl came to him, saying, "You also were with Jesus of Galilee."  But he denied it before them all, saying, "I do not know what you are saying."  My study bible remarks that as it is a girl who is the first to test Peter, this is an icon of the temptation of Adam by Eve (Genesis 3:6).  In yet another powerful impact of this time of evil, our fallen state is overcome in Christ when it is women who are the first to hear, believe, and proclaim the Resurrection (Luke 24:1-10).

And when he had gone out to the gateway, another girl saw him and said to those who were there, "This fellow also was with Jesus of Nazareth."  But again he denied with an oath, "I do not know the Man!"  And a little later those who stood by came up and said to Peter, "Surely you are also one of them, for your speech betrays you."  Then he began to curse and swear, saying, "I do not know the Man!"  Immediately a rooster crowed.  And Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So he went out and wept bitterly.  Until the rooster crowed, Peter was so overcome with fear that he had forgotten Christ's prediction of his denial (Matthew 26:31-35).   In Luke's Gospel, it is not even the rooster's crow but only the gaze of Christ that causes Peter to weep bitterly in repentance (Luke 22:60-61).  Nonetheless, St. Ambrose of Milan comments that "through tears, what cannot be defended can be purged, for tears wash away the offense which is shameful to confess out loud."

What happens when we let ourselves down, or when our own cowardice becomes a source of regret and shame?  St. Peter displays for us this scene of deep regret, crying bitter tears over his own denial of Christ.  It must be made all the worse for Peter's memory of objecting directly to Jesus after the prophesy He made concerning Peter's denial, when Jesus told Peter, "Assuredly, I say to you that this night, before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times" (26:35).  And then Peter replied to Him, "Even if I have to die with You, I will not deny You!" (26:36).  It is one thing to let oneself down, to let a loved one down, even to let down one's friends.  But Peter's denial and failure come in such a spectacular way, despite his most vehement declaration in directly contradicting Christ and His prophecy -- and it happens due to fear at the question of a servant girl.  Perhaps, and I would say most assuredly it is so, Peter's rather spectacular failure and shame is given to us in the Gospels for a very good reason.  How can we possibly understand our own lives if we are not given such examples?  Who among us can declare ourselves free of the same type of spectacular failures, albeit on a much less renowned level?  In the Gospels, Peter's great failure here is declared to the world, and continues to be declared to the world, but for a very good and perfect reason.  It is so that we, ourselves understand our lives in terms of our own failures, embarrassments, and shame.  Peter, the great leader of and speaker for all of the apostles, goes before us on a road of humility and of love.  Humility, because we all need to come to terms with ourselves and our own failure to live up to our expectations of ourselves.  And love, because Peter is welcomed back with love by Christ quite specifically.  The angel at the tomb, in giving the myrrh-bearing women the great news of Resurrection, says to them, "But go, tell His disciples—and Peter—that He is going before you into Galilee; there you will see Him, as He said to you."  And in Jesus' last appearance to him, Jesus specifically calls Peter to the task ahead of feeding His lambs (John 21:15-19), but first asking, "Do you love Me?"  What we understand through Peter's disappointment and crushing failure to live up to his own declaration of loyalty to Christ, is that via repentance, there is always room in this fold for one who is willing to put their hand to the plow, and follow Him.  Our worst letdowns, our most embarrassing and humiliating failures, are in the end, all fodder for the proper teachings of Christ.  In this journey of faith, there is nothing in our lives that will be left out.  There is nothing within us that cannot be used, transformed, repented, and especially challenging us to "get over ourselves," and come to the place of humility that all truly great service starts with.  We cannot possibly know how spectacularly we can be redeemed until we reckon with our own shortcomings (especially in our own eyes) within the love and care of Christ.  It is perhaps the times of our greatest humiliation that can, in fact, serve as the most powerful stepping stones for growth and transcendence in Christ's work within us.  For it is at that place where we realize that it is the "praise of God" that matters, the direction we're offered through divine love, and not the "praise of men."  It is in that crucible where we find our real identity rests in the Word who spoke us into existence in the first place.  That is where our life begins, and it is also the place to which we repeatedly return, particularly in repentance and in the depth of prayer.  Jesus goes to the Cross, a place of the most humiliating punishment, ridicule, and rejection.  But He shows us the way through our own times of personal failure, just as Peter will become an apostle who will indeed "die with Christ" rather than deny Him at the end of his life in this world, as Christ prophesies (John 21:18-19).  It is the power of the Cross that takes our worst experiences, and rebuilds our lives in Christ's hands, for service, and for the life of the world.  In this way, we might also enter into the those who have labored before us.

Then Peter remembered the word of the Lord, how He had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times"

 Then Jesus said to the chief priests, captains of the temple, and the elders who had come to Him, "Have you come out, as against a robber, with swords and clubs?  When I was with you daily in the temple, you did not try to seize Me.  But this is your hour, and the power of darkness."

Having arrested Him, they led Him and brought Him into the high priest's house.  But Peter followed at a distance.  Now when they had kindled a fire in the midst of the courtyard and sat down together, Peter sat among them.  And a certain servant girl, seeing him as he sat by the fire, looked intently at him and said, "This man was also with Him."  But he denied Him, saying, "Woman, I do not know Him."  And after a little while another saw him and said, "You also are of them."  But Peter said, "Man, I am not!"  Then after about an hour had passed, another confidently affirmed, saying, "Surely this fellow also was with Him, for he is a Galilean."  But Peter said, "Man, I do not know what you are saying!"  Immediately, while he was still speaking, the rooster crowed.  And the Lord turned and looked at Peter.  Then Peter remembered the word of the Lord, how He had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So Peter went out and wept bitterly. 

- Luke 22:52-62

On Saturday, we read that coming out from the Passover supper (the Last Supper),  Jesus went to the Mount of Olives, as He was accustomed, and His disciples also followed Him.  When He came to the place, He said to them, "Pray that you may not enter into temptation."  And He was withdrawn from them about a stone's throw, and He knelt down and prayed, saying, "Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from Me; nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done."  Then an angel appeared to Him from heaven, strengthening Him.  And being in agony, He prayed more earnestly.  Then His sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground.  When He rose up from prayer, and had come to His disciples, He found them sleeping from sorrow.  Then He said to them, "Why do you sleep?  Rise and pray, lest you enter into temptation."  And while He was still speaking, behold, a multitude; and he who was called Judas, one of the twelve, went before them and drew near to Jesus to kiss Him.  But Jesus said to him, "Judas, are you betraying the Son of Man with a kiss?"  When those around Him saw what was going to happen, they said to Him, "Lord, shall we strike with the sword?"  And one of them struck the servant of the high priest and cut off his right ear.  But Jesus answered and said, "Permit even this."  And He touched his ear and healed him.

 Then Jesus said to the chief priests, captains of the temple, and the elders who had come to Him, "Have you come out, as against a robber, with swords and clubs?  When I was with you daily in the temple, you did not try to seize Me.  But this is your hour, and the power of darkness."  Regarding the power of darkness, see John 3:19-21, 13:30.

 Having arrested Him, they led Him and brought Him into the high priest's house.  But Peter followed at a distance.  Now when they had kindled a fire in the midst of the courtyard and sat down together, Peter sat among them.  And a certain servant girl, seeing him as he sat by the fire, looked intently at him and said, "This man was also with Him."  But he denied Him, saying, "Woman, I do not know Him."  My study bible says that a girl being the first to test Peter is an icon of the temptation by Adam of Eve (Genesis 3:6).  This state is reversed for all of us when it is overcome in Christ through the women who are the first to hear, believe, and proclaim the Resurrection (24:1-10).

And after a little while another saw him and said, "You also are of them."  But Peter said, "Man, I am not!"  Then after about an hour had passed, another confidently affirmed, saying, "Surely this fellow also was with Him, for he is a Galilean."  But Peter said, "Man, I do not know what you are saying!"  Immediately, while he was still speaking, the rooster crowed.  And the Lord turned and looked at Peter.  Then Peter remembered the word of the Lord, how He had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So Peter went out and wept bitterly.  My study bible says that Peter is so overcome with fear that neither Christ's prediction (verse 34) nor the crowing of the rooster calls him to repentance, but only the Lord's gaze causes him to weep bitterly.   It quotes the commentary of St. Ambrose of Milan, who writes that nevertheless, "through tears, what cannot be defended can be purged, for tears wash away the offense which is shameful to confess out loud."

Let us recall Peter's words to Jesus, when the Lord told him that "Satan has asked for you, that he may sift you as wheat."  Peter replied, "Lord, I am ready to go with You, both to prison and to death."  Jesus told him, "I tell you, Peter, the rooster shall not crow this day before you will deny three times that you know Me."  Repeatedly, Christ has tried to warn the disciples, and in particular, Peter, of this time of great trial and temptation.  It is part of the power of darkness.  All of the tensions are heightened at this time.   The disciples sleep while Christ is in agony, during which we were told His sweat fell like great drops of blood to the ground.  Three times He sought them out,  and He finally warned them,  "Rise and pray, lest you enter into temptation."   The servant of the high priest was struck with a sword when they went to arrest Jesus (after which He healed the servant's ear).  It is a picture of confusion and heightened terror and enormous strain.  It is in this atmosphere that Peter enters the courtyard of the high priest's home, and is confronted by a servant girl as they sat by the fire in the darkness.  As time passes, two more assert that Peter was one of Christ's followers, which he vehemently denies.  Then the rooster crowed, and from inside the house, the Lord turned and looked at Peter.   Peter's great intention of going both to prison and to death with Christ, his confident assertion of such loyalty, has come to this moment, in which he realizes that he has failed His Lord.   Here he is, the one who speaks for the rest of the apostles, in this place where Christ is imprisoned -- and Peter has denied he even knows Him, in the face of confrontation by a servant girl.   There is a saying which comes from a Scots-language poem by Robert Burns:  "The best-laid plans of mice and men often go awry."  We are all fortunate that we are given St. Peter's impulsiveness and fallibility in the Gospels.   He who is re-named "Rock" by Christ, is the one who will go on to be the leader we know him to be, and will in fact go to prison and death for Christ.  But the picture of humility, tears, and redemption in Peter is the picture for each one of us.  When the women return from the tomb and report the Resurrection, the apostles think they're spouting nonsense (which might be indicative, once again, of the tenor of the time surrounding the death of Christ for His followers).  But it is Peter who will run to the tomb, and find the linen cloths, and marvel (24:9-12).  In the impulsivity and beloved qualities of St. Peter, we find ourselves, and we find a saint that is, indeed, for everyone.  Laid out like images in a play or announcements posted on a wall for all to see, are Peter's stumblings and foibles.  He represents for us an irrepressible quality in his energy and zeal, and his immediate declarations (such as when he asks if they should make three tabernacles at the Transfiguration, or when he insists that Christ not be killed, and of course, that he will go to prison and die for Christ in our recent reading).  Perhaps it's his very impulsivity and seeming foolishness that is beloved to us, as he doesn't mask what he feels and his subsequent humility (and humiliation) is deliberately laid out for all of us to see.  He's even taken to task by St. Paul in the Letter to the Galatians (Galatians 2:11-13).  We should give thanks, it seems to me, that our example of the leader among the apostles is one given to many mistakes, and to suffering and humiliation -- needing this correction of humility to his assurances that he is capable of the greatest heroism.  His heroism will prove true, but through the assistance of the Holy Spirit and his own growth in the ministry of preaching, teaching, and being sent out with the Gospel.   Perhaps his impulsiveness and exuberance serve to remind us of a heart that is true, even when mistaken -- one that does not hide behind poses and masks.  In Peter is the work of the Kingdom, and of the Holy Spirit, for all of us -- for he figures so prominently in the story of the Church that he the very person we need to teach us that faith is a process within us.  As a mature man, Peter will figure for us as one truly shaped by experience, having learned the hard way his deep need for reliance upon God.  Our ideas of perfection must be turned upside down, even as we understand through tradition that St. Peter requested his crucifixion to be upside down, not considering himself worthy of full imitation of the Lord.  Do you or someone you know have problems with impulse control?   Have you ever walked into a circumstance full of confidence, only to find yourself vulnerable where you least expected it?  Do you frequently need to be reminded of the value of humility?  Does your own cowardice ever shock or shame you?  Does the phrase "fools rush in where angels fear to tread" (originally from a poem by Alexander Pope) ever fit you?  Does your own exuberance betray you, or do you find yourself blurting out things best left unsaid when under stress or strain?  Has your failure ever belied your good intentions?  Well, the Church has a saint for you -- and for all of us.  Let us be truly grateful!

Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times." So he went out and wept bitterly

 Now Peter sat outside in the courtyard.  And a servant girl came to him, saying, "You also were with Jesus of Galilee."  But he denied it before them all, saying, "I do not know what you are saying."  And when he had gone out to the gateway, another girl saw him and said to those who were there, "This fellow also was with Jesus of Nazareth."  But again he denied with an oath, "I do not know the Man!"  And a little later those who stood by came up and said to Peter, "Surely you also are one of them, for your speech betrays you."  Then he began to curse and swear, saying, "I do not know the Man!"  Immediately a rooster crowed.  And Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So he went out and wept bitterly.

- Matthew 26:69-75

Yesterday we read that those who had seized Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane led Him away to Caiaphas the high priest, where the scribes and the elders were assembled.  But Peter followed Him at a distance to the high priest's courtyard.  And he went in and sat with the servants to see the end.  Now the chief priests, the elders, and all the council sought false testimony against Jesus to put Him to death, but found none.  Even though many false witnesses came forward, they found none.  But at last two false witnesses came forward and said, "This fellow said, 'I am able to destroy the temple of God and to build it in three days.'"  And the high priest arose and said to Him, "Do You answer nothing?  What is it these men testify against You?"  But Jesus kept silent.  And the high priest answered and said to Him, "I put You under oath by the living God:  Tell us if You are the Christ, the Son of God!"  Jesus said to him, "It is as you said.  Nevertheless, I say to you, hereafter you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of the Power, and coming on the clouds of heaven."  Then the high priest tore his clothes, saying, "He has spoken blasphemy!  What further need do we have of witnesses?  Look, now you have heard His blasphemy!  What do you think?"  They answered and said, "He is deserving of death."  Then they spat in His face and beat Him; and others struck Him with the palms of their hands, saying, "Prophesy to us, Christ!  Who is the one who struck You?" 

  Now Peter sat outside in the courtyard.  And a servant girl came to him, saying, "You also were with Jesus of Galilee."  But he denied it before them all, saying, "I do not know what you are saying."  And when he had gone out to the gateway, another girl saw him and said to those who were there, "This fellow also was with Jesus of Nazareth."  But again he denied with an oath, "I do not know the Man!"  My study bible comments that there is an echo or an icon here of Adam's temptation by Eve (Genesis 3:6), as a girl is the first to test Peter in this scene.  This fallen state is overcome when it is women who are the first to hear, believe, and proclaim the Resurrection (Luke 24:1-10).

And a little later those who stood by came up and said to Peter, "Surely you also are one of them, for your speech betrays you."  Then he began to curse and swear, saying, "I do not know the Man!"  Immediately a rooster crowed.  And Peter remembered the word of Jesus who had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So he went out and wept bitterly.  Peter's speech betrays him as he speaks with the accent of a Galilean, like Christ.  In this reading, Jesus prophesied Peter's denial of Him this night, in the midst of Peter's vehement denials.  When the rooster crowed, Peter came to himself, and went out and wept bitterly.  My study bible quotes St. Ambrose of Milan, who wrote that "through tears, what cannot be defended can be purged, for tears wash away the offense which is shameful to confess out loud."

The rooster's crow is truly a "wake up call" for Peter.  It is a time when he comes to himself, understands himself, wakes up to himself -- and realizes Christ's prophesy as correct.  Tears are signs of truth, one that is faced and transformed through recognition, grappled with.  Peter's not only realizing that what Christ said about his own weakness was correct, but that Peter's grand understanding of his capacity for heroism was wrong.  He capitulates in front of a servant girl.  We can hardly blame Peter entirely for the terror of this night.  He is the one who drew the sword to defend Christ in the garden (identified in John 18:10), whereby Jesus told him, "Put your sword in its place, for all who take the sword will perish by the sword," and assuring him that if He desired, the Father would defend Him with legions of angels.   It seems that Peter simply cannot grasp what is happening.  He is, after all, the one who insisted that Christ will not die, to which Christ responded, "Get behind Me, Satan!" (16:22-23).  Through this experience, Peter must come to terms with several different things, and it's illustrative of our own transformative processes that may take place within our faith.  First, there is his own weakness, despite his declaration to Jesus that "even if all are made to stumble because of You, I will never be made to stumble."  And, after Jesus' prophesy that Peter would deny Him three times before the rooster crows, Peter said,  "Even if I have to die with You, I will not deny You!" (see this reading).   He has a faith in himself that comes from not knowing his own human weakness.  Secondly, he doubts even the prophecy of Christ regarding his own vulnerability.  Finally, there are the bitter tears of recognition and truth -- and the repentance that comes with them.  It's very important that we take all of these things in the context of our own journeys of faith, and the process of salvation.  We're not simply fully healed in a flash, we don't come to the fullness of union and salvation automatically, and there is really no bypassing all the steps in this process of coming to reconcile ourselves not only with Christ and His vision for us, but the recognition of our own weaknesses and things that need changing along the way.  Peter trusted in himself that he surely would never let Christ down, and when it comes time for his own death, so it will be a sacrificial, humble, and heroic one.  But in this circumstance in today's reading, there is so much more that he must learn, and endure, and grow through along the way to becoming the powerful leader among the apostles that he will become.  Thus, Peter remains such an important example of those among whom we choose to grow in our own faith, whose own experience must inform us about the powerful healing journey of faith.  There are sometimes heartbreaking truths we must accept, sometimes things we won't be able to control and things that will go the opposite way of what we think it perfect and right.  Humility can be an exceptionally tough lesson to learn.  But through it all, we have our own tears of recognition and reconciliation and acceptance -- and our own way to grow through such experiences and the fullness of who we are and can become in Christ's love.  We will all make mistakes along the way.  Let us be truly thankful that the love of God sees us through all of our own stumbling, blindness, shortcomings, through the gift of faith.