Then Peter called to mind the word that Jesus had said to him, "Before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times." And when he thought about it, he wept

 

 Now as Peter was below in the courtyard, one of the servant girls of the high priest came.  And when she saw Peter warming himself, she looked at him and said, "You also were with Jesus of Nazareth."  But he denied it, saying, "I neither know nor understand what you are saying."  And he went out on the porch, and a rooster crowed.  And the servant girl saw him again, and began to say to those who stood by, "This is one of them."  But he denied it again.  And a little later those who stood by said to Peter again, "Surely you are one of them; for you are a Galilean, and your speech shows it."  Then he began to curse and swear, "I do not know this Man of whom you speak!"  A second time the rooster crowed.  Then Peter called to mind the word that Jesus had said to him, "Before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times."  And when he thought about it, he wept.

 

- Mark 14:66-72 

 

 Yesterday we read that the arresting soldiers led Jesus away to the high priest; and with him were assembled all the chief priests, the elders, and the scribes.  But Peter followed Him at a distance, right into the courtyard of the high priest.  And he sat with the servants and warmed himself at the fire.   Now the chief priests and all the council sought testimony against Jesus to put Him to death, but found none.  For many bore false witness against Him, but their testimonies did not agree.  Then some rose up and bore false witness against Him, saying, "We heard Him say, 'I will destroy this temple made with hands, and within three days I will build another made without hands.'"  But not even then did their testimony agree.  And the high priest stood up in the midst and asked Jesus, saying, "Do You answer nothing?  What is it these men testify against You?"  But He kept silent and answered nothing Again the high priest asked Him, saying to Him, "Are You the Christ, the Son of the Blessed?"  Jesus said, "I am.  And you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of the Power, and coming with the clouds of heaven."  Then the high priest tore his clothes and said, "What further need do we have of witnesses?  You have heard the blasphemy!  What do you think?"  And they all condemned Him to be deserving of death.  Then some began to spit on Him, and to blindfold Him, and to beat Him, and to say to Him, "Prophesy!"  And the officers struck Him with the palms of their hands.

 

 Now as Peter was below in the courtyard, one of the servant girls of the high priest came.  And when she saw Peter warming himself, she looked at him and said, "You also were with Jesus of Nazareth."  But he denied it, saying, "I neither know nor understand what you are saying."  And he went out on the porch, and a rooster crowed.  And the servant girl saw him again, and began to say to those who stood by, "This is one of them."  But he denied it again.  My study Bible comments on the fact that a girl is the first to test Peter.  It notes that this is an icon of temptation of Adam by Eve (Genesis 3:6).  Our fallen state is overcome in Christ, it notes, when women are the first to hear, believe, and proclaim the Resurrection (see Luke 24:1-10).  

 

 And a little later those who stood by said to Peter again, "Surely you are one of them; for you are a Galilean, and your speech shows it."  Then he began to curse and swear, "I do not know this Man of whom you speak!"  A second time the rooster crowed.  Then Peter called to mind the word that Jesus had said to him, "Before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times."  And when he thought about it, he wept.  In Luke's telling of this story, neither Christ's prediction of his betrayal (Mark 14:29-31), nor the crowing of the rooster calls Peter to repentance, but rather the Lord's gaze causes him to weep bitterly (Luke 22:61-62).   My study Bible quotes St. Ambrose of Milan, who writes that "through tears, what cannot be defended can be purged, for tears wash away the offense which is shameful to confess out loud." 

 

Today's reading gives us a good lesson in humility, and does so on a number of levels.  First of all, there is the story of Peter himself, de facto leader and spokesman among the disciples for so much of Christ's ministry and of the early Church.  And yet it is the great Peter who suffers this humiliation and failure in his own eyes and from the word of his own mouth.  While we're told that all the disciples followed Peter in affirming that they would willingly die with Christ before they would deny Him (Mark 14:29-31), it is Peter himself who gives the lie to his own affirmation by denying Christ three times in that early morning while Christ is inside the high priest's home, being tried and convicted by the Council.  Peter's bitter tears express his recognition of this humiliating defeat of his own best intentions, and his own belief in himself and in his faith, which has failed him.  We could say that the great humiliation is in the fact that he failed himself, even though Christ told him this would come to pass.  There is another level of humiliation in that Peter himself was such an important disciple and an icon of faith among them.  So often chosen by Christ as part of His closest circle, such as at the Transfiguration, and the healing of Jairus' daughter, Peter has now in effect let them all down through his denial.  Finally, there is the greater circle as witness to this humiliation, and that is all those who hear and read the Gospel, and will continue to do so.  For our faith includes this story for all of us to read, as it is a great teaching for all of us.  It is just as equally powerfully a story of Peter's own humility, in that wherever the gospel is preached so is this story included about the great disciple St. Peter, named "Rock" by Christ for his faith.  Can we possibly imagine the tremendous humility it took for such a person to bear this story about himself everywhere the Church would go, everywhere the gospel message would go?  Peter, in effect, through this failure, teaches us all about how humility and faith go hand in hand.  For Peter's own restoration to the Church (Mark 16:7), and special mission given by Christ after the Resurrection, depends upon both humility and faith (John 21:15-19).  Indeed, it is Peter who so often is chastised by Christ in part because of his enthusiasm, as he rushes in with his heart where wisdom will correct him.  This happens most vividly when Peter tries to dissuade Jesus from going to His death, as Peter suffers a tremendous rebuke:  "Get behind Me, Satan!"  (Mark 8:33), but that incident is one among others.  Possibly one of the most ironic comes just after Peter's full restoration, as reported by John in the final verses of his Gospel, as Peter then turns around and must ask Christ about someone else's work to do.  He's told by the Resurrected Christ then, "What is that to you?  You follow Me" (see John 21:20-25).  The fullness of the experiences of Peter given to us tell us of the exceptional nature both of his faith and of his humility, for he had to withstand repeated corrections and personal failures, and yet continue in his faith.  And this, we might conclude, is what effectively makes for great leadership, at least in this man so capable of deep feeling as well as his own errors.  What we learn from Peter is that in every defeat we may find the seeds of our own "resurrection" if we have the humility to do so, and to turn to Christ in that humility.  Peter shows us effectively how essential humility really is to true greatness, for it is only in real humility that we can accept what is true, despite our own bitter tears at our own mistaken failures.