Then Peter called to mind the word that Jesus had said to him, "Before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times." And when he thought about it, he wept

 

 Now as Peter was below in the courtyard, one of the servant girls of the high priest came.  And when she saw Peter warming himself, she looked at him and said, "You also were with Jesus of Nazareth."  But he denied it, saying, "I neither know nor understand what you are saying."  And he went out on the porch, and a rooster crowed.  And the servant girl saw him again, and began to say to those who stood by, "This is one of them."  But he denied it again.  And a little later those who stood by said to Peter again, "Surely you are one of them; for you are a Galilean, and your speech shows it."  Then he began to curse and swear, "I do not know this Man of whom you speak!"  A second time the rooster crowed.  Then Peter called to mind the word that Jesus had said to him, "Before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times."  And when he thought about it, he wept.

 

- Mark 14:66-72 

 

 Yesterday we read that the arresting soldiers led Jesus away to the high priest; and with him were assembled all the chief priests, the elders, and the scribes.  But Peter followed Him at a distance, right into the courtyard of the high priest.  And he sat with the servants and warmed himself at the fire.   Now the chief priests and all the council sought testimony against Jesus to put Him to death, but found none.  For many bore false witness against Him, but their testimonies did not agree.  Then some rose up and bore false witness against Him, saying, "We heard Him say, 'I will destroy this temple made with hands, and within three days I will build another made without hands.'"  But not even then did their testimony agree.  And the high priest stood up in the midst and asked Jesus, saying, "Do You answer nothing?  What is it these men testify against You?"  But He kept silent and answered nothing Again the high priest asked Him, saying to Him, "Are You the Christ, the Son of the Blessed?"  Jesus said, "I am.  And you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of the Power, and coming with the clouds of heaven."  Then the high priest tore his clothes and said, "What further need do we have of witnesses?  You have heard the blasphemy!  What do you think?"  And they all condemned Him to be deserving of death.  Then some began to spit on Him, and to blindfold Him, and to beat Him, and to say to Him, "Prophesy!"  And the officers struck Him with the palms of their hands.

 

 Now as Peter was below in the courtyard, one of the servant girls of the high priest came.  And when she saw Peter warming himself, she looked at him and said, "You also were with Jesus of Nazareth."  But he denied it, saying, "I neither know nor understand what you are saying."  And he went out on the porch, and a rooster crowed.  And the servant girl saw him again, and began to say to those who stood by, "This is one of them."  But he denied it again.  My study Bible comments on the fact that a girl is the first to test Peter.  It notes that this is an icon of temptation of Adam by Eve (Genesis 3:6).  Our fallen state is overcome in Christ, it notes, when women are the first to hear, believe, and proclaim the Resurrection (see Luke 24:1-10).  

 

 And a little later those who stood by said to Peter again, "Surely you are one of them; for you are a Galilean, and your speech shows it."  Then he began to curse and swear, "I do not know this Man of whom you speak!"  A second time the rooster crowed.  Then Peter called to mind the word that Jesus had said to him, "Before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times."  And when he thought about it, he wept.  In Luke's telling of this story, neither Christ's prediction of his betrayal (Mark 14:29-31), nor the crowing of the rooster calls Peter to repentance, but rather the Lord's gaze causes him to weep bitterly (Luke 22:61-62).   My study Bible quotes St. Ambrose of Milan, who writes that "through tears, what cannot be defended can be purged, for tears wash away the offense which is shameful to confess out loud." 

 

Today's reading gives us a good lesson in humility, and does so on a number of levels.  First of all, there is the story of Peter himself, de facto leader and spokesman among the disciples for so much of Christ's ministry and of the early Church.  And yet it is the great Peter who suffers this humiliation and failure in his own eyes and from the word of his own mouth.  While we're told that all the disciples followed Peter in affirming that they would willingly die with Christ before they would deny Him (Mark 14:29-31), it is Peter himself who gives the lie to his own affirmation by denying Christ three times in that early morning while Christ is inside the high priest's home, being tried and convicted by the Council.  Peter's bitter tears express his recognition of this humiliating defeat of his own best intentions, and his own belief in himself and in his faith, which has failed him.  We could say that the great humiliation is in the fact that he failed himself, even though Christ told him this would come to pass.  There is another level of humiliation in that Peter himself was such an important disciple and an icon of faith among them.  So often chosen by Christ as part of His closest circle, such as at the Transfiguration, and the healing of Jairus' daughter, Peter has now in effect let them all down through his denial.  Finally, there is the greater circle as witness to this humiliation, and that is all those who hear and read the Gospel, and will continue to do so.  For our faith includes this story for all of us to read, as it is a great teaching for all of us.  It is just as equally powerfully a story of Peter's own humility, in that wherever the gospel is preached so is this story included about the great disciple St. Peter, named "Rock" by Christ for his faith.  Can we possibly imagine the tremendous humility it took for such a person to bear this story about himself everywhere the Church would go, everywhere the gospel message would go?  Peter, in effect, through this failure, teaches us all about how humility and faith go hand in hand.  For Peter's own restoration to the Church (Mark 16:7), and special mission given by Christ after the Resurrection, depends upon both humility and faith (John 21:15-19).  Indeed, it is Peter who so often is chastised by Christ in part because of his enthusiasm, as he rushes in with his heart where wisdom will correct him.  This happens most vividly when Peter tries to dissuade Jesus from going to His death, as Peter suffers a tremendous rebuke:  "Get behind Me, Satan!"  (Mark 8:33), but that incident is one among others.  Possibly one of the most ironic comes just after Peter's full restoration, as reported by John in the final verses of his Gospel, as Peter then turns around and must ask Christ about someone else's work to do.  He's told by the Resurrected Christ then, "What is that to you?  You follow Me" (see John 21:20-25).  The fullness of the experiences of Peter given to us tell us of the exceptional nature both of his faith and of his humility, for he had to withstand repeated corrections and personal failures, and yet continue in his faith.  And this, we might conclude, is what effectively makes for great leadership, at least in this man so capable of deep feeling as well as his own errors.  What we learn from Peter is that in every defeat we may find the seeds of our own "resurrection" if we have the humility to do so, and to turn to Christ in that humility.  Peter shows us effectively how essential humility really is to true greatness, for it is only in real humility that we can accept what is true, despite our own bitter tears at our own mistaken failures. 

 

 

Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation

 

 Then Jesus said to them, "All of you will be made to stumble because of Me this night, for it is written:

'I will strike the Shepherd,

And the sheep will be scattered.'

"But after I have been raised, I will go before you to Galilee."  Peter said to Him, "Even if all are made to stumble, yet I will not be."  Jesus said to him, "Assuredly, I say to you that today, even this night, before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times."  But he spoke more vehemently, "If I have to die with You, I will not deny You!"  And they all said likewise.

Then they came to a place which was named Gethsemane; and He said to His disciples, "Sit here while I pray."  And He took Peter, James, and John with Him, and He began to be troubled and deeply distressed.  Then He said to them, "My soul is exceedingly sorrowful, even to death.  Stay here and watch."  He went a little farther, and fell on the ground, and prayed that if it were possible, the hour might pass from Him.  And He said, "Abba, Father, all things are possible for You.  Take this cup away from Me; nevertheless, not what I will, but what You will."  Then He came and found them sleeping, and said to Peter, "Simon, are you sleeping?  Could you not watch one hour?  Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation.  The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak."  Again He went away and prayed, and spoke the same words.  And when He returned, He found them asleep again, for their eyes were heavy; and they did not know what to answer Him.  Then He came the third time and said to them, "Are you still sleeping and resting?  It is enough!  The hour has come; behold, the Son of Man is being betrayed into the hands of sinners.  Rise, let us be going.  See, My betrayer is at hand."

 

- Mark 14:27–42 

 

Yesterday we read that on the first day of Unleavened Bread, when they killed the Passover lamb, His disciples said to Him, "Where do You want us to go and prepare, that You may eat the Passover?"  And He sent out two of His disciples and said to them, "Go into the city, and a man will meet you carrying a pitcher of water; follow him.  Wherever he goes in, say to the master of the house, 'The Teacher says, "Where is the guest room in which I may eat the Passover with My disciples?"'  Then he will show you a large upper room, furnished and prepared; there make ready for us."  So His disciples went out, and came into the city, and found it just as He had said to them; and they prepared the Passover.  In the evening He came with the twelve.  Now as they sat and ate, Jesus said, "Assuredly, I say to you, one of you who eats with Me will betray Me."  And they began to be sorrowful, and to say to Him one by one, "Is it I?"  And another said, "Is it I?"  And another said, "Is it I?"  He answered and said to them, "It is one of the twelve, who dips with Me in the dish.  The Son of Man indeed goes just as it is written of Him, but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed!  It would have been good for that man if he had never been born."  And as they were eating, Jesus took bread, blessed it and broke it, and gave it to them and said, "Take, eat; this is My body."  Then He took the cup, and when He had given thanks He gave it to them, and they all drank from it.  And He said to them, "This is My blood of the new covenant, which is shed for many.  Assuredly, I say to you, I will no longer drink of the fruit of the vine until that day when I drink it new in the kingdom of God."  And when they had sung a hymn, they went out to the Mount of Olives.

 

 Then Jesus said to them, "All of you will be made to stumble because of Me this night, for it is written:  'I will strike the Shepherd, and the sheep will be scattered.'  But after I have been raised, I will go before you to Galilee."  Peter said to Him, "Even if all are made to stumble, yet I will not be."  Jesus said to him, "Assuredly, I say to you that today, even this night, before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times."  But he spoke more vehemently, "If I have to die with You, I will not deny You!"  And they all said likewise.  Jesus quotes from the prophecy of Zechariah 13:7.  Speaking also prophetically, He tells Peter that, despite Peter's vehement assurances to the contrary, "today, even this night, before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times."

 

Then they came to a place which was named Gethsemane; and He said to His disciples, "Sit here while I pray."  And He took Peter, James, and John with Him, and He began to be troubled and deeply distressed.  Then He said to them, "My soul is exceedingly sorrowful, even to death.  Stay here and watch."  Gethsemane means "oil press."  It is an orchard of olive trees at the foot of the Mount of Olives.  My study Bible comments that Christ intentionally came to the place known to His betrayer Judas, one of His disciples (see John 18:2).  This shows that He was going to His Passion willingly and voluntarily.  It reveals Christ went to find Judas rather than Judas finding Christ.  Taken together in this context, we understand Christ is fully aware of this night as the beginning of His Passion, His way to betrayal and the Cross.  Hence He is troubled and deeply distressed, and His fully human identity is revealed in His words and His need for His closest disciples (Peter, James, and John), the ones of greatest faith.  There is no doubt that the sorrow in His soul is also connected to His concerns about His flock, what they will undergo, how they will respond, and how they will fare without Him in the flesh as their Protector and Leader.

He went a little farther, and fell on the ground, and prayed that if it were possible, the hour might pass from Him.  And He said, "Abba, Father, all things are possible for You.  Take this cup away from Me; nevertheless, not what I will, but what You will."    Abba in Aramaic is the familiar form for Father, my study Bible says.  It is equivalent to "Papa," and indicates Christ's intimacy with God the Father.  This cup is a reference to Christ's impending death, my study Bible explains.  According to His divine nature, Jesus goes to His death.  But as a man, He wishes He could avoid it -- for it is the mark of humanity to abhor death.   He prays to the Father, "Take this cup away from Me," showing His human nature; "nevertheless, not what I will but what You will."  He is without sin and completely subjects and unites His human will to the Father's divine will.  

 

Then He came and found them sleeping, and said to Peter, "Simon, are you sleeping?  Could you not watch one hour?  Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation.  The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak."  Again He went away and prayed, and spoke the same words.  And when He returned, He found them asleep again, for their eyes were heavy; and they did not know what to answer Him.  Then He came the third time and said to them, "Are you still sleeping and resting?  It is enough!  The hour has come; behold, the Son of Man is being betrayed into the hands of sinners.  Rise, let us be going.  See, My betrayer is at hand."  Jesus tells the disciples, "Watch and pray."  These are also the bywords He has given to all of us for the period in which we live, while we await His Second Coming (see this reading).   My study Bible calls this phrase the key to Christian spirituality and our struggle against temptation.  It says that by this, the Lord's human soul is strengthened, and He faces death with divine courage.  In contrast to the vigilance of Jesus, the disciples are sleeping.  Since body and soul are united, my study Bible says, the spirit is paralyzed by a lethargic body.  A willing spirit recognizes the weakness of the flesh, and struggles against its weakness, relying on God's presence and power.  

Jesus goes toward His death as a hero, in a heroic way.  This is not to say that He is a kind of conventional conquering hero -- one who slays His enemies in front of Him and dominates everybody.  On the contrary, He is prepared to go to His death on the Cross as a kind of victim.  That is, a victim of the plots of the religious leadership and their manipulation of the people, because He gets in the way of their power and positions.  But, on the other hand, a victim is not one with the power that Christ has, the miraculous powers witnessed throughout His ministry, or His compelling power to speak which subdued and daunted even the police in the temple who came to arrest Him (see John 7:45-46).  We also know of Jesus' testimony to the power of prayer (see Mark 11:23), and we certainly know the power of the Son to pray to the Father ("Do you think that I cannot now pray to My Father, and He will provide Me with more than twelve legions of angels?" - Matthew 26:53).  No, this is not at all a victim, except to the eyes of those who know nothing about the Christ and His identity as Son and the compelling nature of His character, leadership, and popular ministry.  He only looks like a victim to the eyes of those for whom strictly material appearances have meaning without depth of any kind.  Christ faces death for one reason only:  out of loyalty to the Father's will, and because He knows that this is the way to defeat death for human beings, the final enemy, and to destroy the "prince of this world" who holds human beings in a kind of slavery.  That is the power of the Cross, and there is so much more that His Passion, death, and Resurrection holds for us.  This is the ultimate power of God to transfigure and transform life for human beings, and the one way to salvation.  Because the one thing that God will not do is to compel us to love God.  Our choices are still our own.  Coercion will not save anybody; only repentance can work in the heart.  It is the devil who enslaves and compels and manipulates, not our loving God.  So Jesus goes to the Cross as a hero who faces sacrifice for the sake of all:  in yesterday's reading (above) Jesus says, "This is My blood of the new covenant, which is shed for many" (for many is an Aramaic expression meaning "for all").  He tells His disciples to "Watch and pray" and so we should remember these words in Gethsemane.  For Jesus' earthly and human soul is in anguish, but nevertheless He subjects His human will to the divine.  He gives us a model of love.  This is the love of a man who walks into battle against the odds because it is the one way others have a chance of being saved, or of a mother who endures all manner  of hardship to care for her children.  It is not the way that sees only prosperity as the reward for good behavior or a simplistic and materialistic sense of the good life to which all are entitled.  This is the heroism of those who understand that we don't live in a perfect world, and there are times when we need to stand up to a crowd, or be humiliated for the sake of those whom we love, or even to take one on the chin for the team.  Life is not just a set of simplistic material values but involves a deeper sense of honor and ultimately of love that is the real treasure without which our souls seem empty.  Christ's heroism is the heroism of the One who cares for us and seeks to nurture and protect us, even to the point of dying for us.  And we watch His example and honor Him by taking His word to heart:  we must watch and pray with Him, even as He goes to His betrayal.  As human beings, we know His agony and we know His torment, the human loathing and terror of death and the terrible anticipation of extreme suffering.  We also will face betrayal in life, and friends who stumble, and who sleep when we need them, and we know the struggle against the weakness of flesh.  Let us watch and pray with Him, for our Lord has descended into this world to face suffering and death with us, to liberate us through His love and compassion and sacrifice for us, and He leaves us with the gift of His word.

 

 

I do not know this Man of whom you speak!

Now as Peter was below in the courtyard, one of the servant girls of the high priest came.  And when she saw Peter warming himself, she looked at him and said, "You also were with Jesus of Nazareth."  But he denied it, saying, "I neither know nor understand what you are saying."  And he went on the porch, and a rooster crowed.  And the servant girl saw him again, and began to say to those who stood by, "This is one of them."  But he denied it again.  And a little later those who stood by said to Peter again, "Surely you are one of them; for you are a Galilean, and your speech shows it."  Then he began to curse and swear, "I do not know this Man of whom you speak!"  A second time the rooster crowed.  Then Peter called to mind the word that Jesus had said to him, "Before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times."  And when he thought about it, he wept.

- Mark 14:66-72

Yesterday we read that those who seized Jesus led Him away to the high priest; and with him were assembled all the chief priests, the elders, and the scribes.  But Peter followed Him at a distance, right into the courtyard of the high priest.  And he sat with the servants and warmed himself at the fire.  Now the chief priests and all the council sought testimony against Jesus to put Him to death, but found none.  For many bore false witness against Him, but their testimonies did not agree.  Then some rose up and bore false witness against Him, saying, "We heard Him say, 'I will destroy this temple made with hands, and within three days I will build another made without hands.' "  But not even then did their testimony agree.  And the high priest stood up in the midst and asked Jesus, saying, "Do You answer nothing?  What is it these men testify against You?"  But He kept silent and answered nothing.  Again the high priest asked Him, saying to Him, "Are You the Christ, the Son of the Blessed?"  Jesus said, "I am.  And you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of the Power, and coming with the clouds of heaven."  Then the high priest tore his clothes and said, "What further need do we have of witnesses?  You have heard the blasphemy!  What do you think?"  And they all condemned Him to be deserving of death.  Then some began to spit on Him, and to blindfold Him, and to beat Him, and to say to Him, "Prophesy!"  And the officers struck Him with the palms of their hands.

Now as Peter was below in the courtyard, one of the servant girls of the high priest came.  And when she saw Peter warming himself, she looked at him and said, "You also were with Jesus of Nazareth."  But he denied it, saying, "I neither know nor understand what you are saying."  And he went on the porch, and a rooster crowed.  And the servant girl saw him again, and began to say to those who stood by, "This is one of them."  But he denied it again.  And a little later those who stood by said to Peter again, "Surely you are one of them; for you are a Galilean, and your speech shows it."  Then he began to curse and swear, "I do not know this Man of whom you speak!"   My study bible comments on the fact that a girl is the first to test Peter:  it is an icon of the temptation of Adam by Eve (Genesis 3:6).  Our fallen state, it notes, is overcome in Christ when it is women who are the first to hear, believe, and proclaim the Resurrection (Luke 24:1-10).  We notice how Peter's fear escalates to the point where he began to curse and swear that he did not know Jesus.  This happens particularly after the servant girl identifies him as a Galilean, by his accent and dialect.

A second time the rooster crowed.  Then Peter called to mind the word that Jesus had said to him, "Before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times."  And when he thought about it, he wept.  Peter's fear was so strong that neither Christ's warning nor the first crowing of the rooster called him to repentance, but only after the second time the rooster crowed did he recall Christ's prophecy to him (see this reading).  In Luke's Gospel, it is Jesus' gaze, apparently from within the home of the high priest while Peter is outside in the courtyard, that calls him to awareness (Luke 22:60-62).  In his sudden consciousness of what had transpired, Peter wept.  St. Ambrose of Milan comments that nonetheless, "through tears, what cannot be defended can be purged, for tears wash away the offense which is shameful to confess out loud."

Once again, the Gospels give us a humiliating, cowardly moment in the life of one of the disciples.  And this isn't just any disciple; it is Peter, their ostensible leader and the one who speaks so often for all of the twelve.  And yet this story appears for each of us, and is present in all four Gospels.  What does it mean that the Church includes this in its life for all the faithful?  We don't get a sugar-coated story, meant only to please our ears nor simply to flatter the images of those who are the founders and pillars of the Church.  Peter got his very name from Christ, who pronounces him Cephas, (in Aramaic), or Peter, from the Greek petros, meaning stone - see John 1:42.  In Matthew's Gospel, it is Peter's confession of faith that Jesus is the Christ which prompts Jesus to pronounce that "on this rock I will build my Church" (see Matthew 16:15-19).  From the traditional Orthodox perspective, this pronunciation applies to the faith that Jesus is the Christ, and Peter speaks for all the disciples.  But nevertheless, it remains Peter who did so.  So this image of Peter the coward, the one who is afraid to tell the servant girl he was a follower of Christ, becomes something quite contradictory to the Peter that we know as leader and spokesman, and who would go on to become the powerful apostle and pillar of the Church.  Let us consider why this story is here, for all of us.  It is so important and crucial to our faith to understand that our faith is all about a wholistic journey of the self, toward an identity and meaning that strengthens us and helps us to grow as human beings.  It is within that realm of the faith of Peter's confession that Jesus is the Christ in which we are able to participate in His life through grace -- a synergistic realm of God and human beings which works through faith and grace.  This Peter who denies Christ three times after swearing he was willing to die with Him is the same Peter whom tradition tells us requested to be martyred upside down, as he was unworthy to be crucified in the same manner in which Jesus was, an act of courage and humility that goes beyond normal understanding.  It is this same impulsive Peter who blurts out something rather insensible at the Transfiguration, and who earlier swore he would die with Jesus before denying Him, and yet who spoke first to confess that Jesus was the Christ.  Our faith gives us what it is to be all too human, with all our failings and disappointments -- even this scene in today's reading which must have been simply humiliating for Peter to recall -- and couches it within the story of what it is to struggle with faith and come to victory.  Peter's salvation from this moment comes when he rejoins the apostles and returns to Christ, still one of the twelve -- a sign of repentance and that his tears are cleansing and life-changing.  We may view this in contrast with the remorse or regret of Judas (as opposed to repentance, true change in humility), which does not lead to his return to the apostles nor to his salvation (see Matthew 27:3-5).  Our faith is not a process of simple reward and punishment, but works through the positive encouragement of repentance, a return to Christ for resurrection and renewal after our failures.   This is why humility remains the keystone and foundation of all virtue, because we must see ourselves in process of an approach to Christ, a sense of trial and error, always learning, getting back upon that road, facing ourselves and our failures and putting them properly into perspective through our participation in the Cross, in both carrying our own cross and living with Him in the Resurrection.  This is our journey!  Let us be grateful for its truth in all things, even our most shameful moments, which may be shared with Him for His direction and faith.  For our God is a God of love.