If I tell you, you will by no means believe. And if I also ask you, you will by no means answer Me or let Me go

 

 Having arrested Him, they led Him and brought Him into the high priest's house.  But Peter followed at a distance.  Now when they had kindled a fire in the midst of the courtyard and sat down together, Peter sat among them.  And a certain servant girl, seeing him as he sat by the fire, looked intently at him and said, "This man was also with Him."  But he denied Him, saying, "Woman, I do not know Him."  And after a little while another saw him and said, "You also are one of them."  But Peter said, "Man, I am not!"  Then after about an hour had passed, another confidently affirmed, saying, "Surely this fellow also was with Him, for he is a Galilean."  But Peter said, "Man, I do not know what you are are saying1"  Immediately, while he was still speaking, the rooster crowed.  And the Lord turned and looked at Peter.  Then Peter remembered the word of the Lord, how He had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So Peter went out and wept bitterly. 

Now the men who held Jesus mocked Him and beat Him.  And having blindfolded Him, they struck Him on the face and asked Him, saying, "Prophesy!  Who is the one who struck You?'  And many other things they blasphemously spoke against Him.  

As soon as it was day, the elders of the people, both chief priests and scribes, came together and led Him into their council, saying, "If You are the Christ, tell us."  But He said to them, "If I tell you, you will by no means believe.  And if I also ask you, you will by no means answer Me or let Me go.  Hereafter the Son of Man will sit on the right hand of the power of God."

 

- Luke 22:54–69 

 

Yesterday, we read that, coming out from the Passover Supper (the Last Supper), Jesus went to the Mount of Olives, as He was accustomed, and His disciples also followed Him.  When He came to the place, He said to them, He said to them, "Pray that you may not enter into temptation."  And He was withdrawn from them about a stone's throw, and He knelt down and prayed, saying, "Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from Me; nevertheless, not My will, but Yours, be done."  Then an angel appeared to Him from heaven, strengthening Him.  And being in agony, He prayed more earnestly.  Then His sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground.  When He rose up from prayer, and had come to His disciples, He found them sleeping from sorrow.  Then He said to them, "Why do you sleep?  Rise and pray, lest you enter into temptation."  And while He was still speaking, behold, a multitude; and he who was called Judas, one of the twelve, went before them and drew near to Jesus to kiss Him.  But Jesus said to him, "Judas, are you betraying the Son of Man with a kiss?"  When those around Him saw what was going to happen, they said to Him, "Lord, shall we strike with the sword?"  And one of them struck the servant of the high priest and cut off his right ear.  But Jesus answered and said, "Permit even this."  And He touched his ear and healed him.  Then Jesus said to the chief priests, captains of the temple, and the elders who had come to Him, "Have you come out, as against a robber, with swords and clubs?  When I was with you daily in the temple, you did not try to seize Me.  But this is your hour, and the power of darkness."   

 

Having arrested Him, they led Him and brought Him into the high priest's house.  But Peter followed at a distance.  Now when they had kindled a fire in the midst of the courtyard and sat down together, Peter sat among them.  And a certain servant girl, seeing him as he sat by the fire, looked intently at him and said, "This man was also with Him."  My study Bible notes that it is a girl who is the first to test Peter; it teaches us that she is an icon of the temptation of Adam by Eve (Genesis 3:6).  The Gospel shows us that our fallen state is overcome in Christ when it is women who are the first to hear, believe, and proclaim the Resurrection (Luke 24:1-10).  

But he denied Him, saying, "Woman, I do not know Him."  And after a little while another saw him and said, "You also are one of them."  But Peter said, "Man, I am not!"  Then after about an hour had passed, another confidently affirmed, saying, "Surely this fellow also was with Him, for he is a Galilean."  But Peter said, "Man, I do not know what you are are saying1"  Immediately, while he was still speaking, the rooster crowed.  And the Lord turned and looked at Peter.  Then Peter remembered the word of the Lord, how He had said to him, "Before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  So Peter went out and wept bitterly.  Peter is so overcome with fear, my study Bible says, that neither Christ's prediction (verse 34) nor the crowing of the rooster calls him to repentance.  It's only the Lord's gaze that finally causes him to weep bitterly.  St. Ambrose of Milan is quoted as saying of this passage that, nevertheless, "through tears, what cannot be defended can be purged, for tears wash away the offense which is shameful to confess out loud."

Now the men who held Jesus mocked Him and beat Him.  And having blindfolded Him, they struck Him on the face and asked Him, saying, "Prophesy!  Who is the one who struck You?'  And many other things they blasphemously spoke against Him.  Our Lord as prisoner is humiliated, ridiculed, abused, in a brutish way.  But we must consider how He condescended to experience what we may experience in our lives.  

As soon as it was day, the elders of the people, both chief priests and scribes, came together and led Him into their council, saying, "If You are the Christ, tell us."  But He said to them, "If I tell you, you will by no means believe.  And if I also ask you, you will by no means answer Me or let Me go.  Hereafter the Son of Man will sit on the right hand of the power of God."  My study Bible comments here that Jesus asked many questions of the Jewish leaders which they refused to answer because doing so would have meant confessing Him as the Christ (Luke 20:4-7; Matthew 22:41-46; Mark 3:4).  His final statement here is a declaration that He is equal with God. 

Let us compare the two responses of Peter and Jesus in today's reading.  St. Peter's expression is to deny that he is a follower of Christ.  In that sense, it's a negative expression, a denial of something.  Three times people identify him as a follower or disciple of Christ, and three times he denies that this is the truth.  "Woman, I do not know Him."  In a sense, this is a refusal to speak, to confess that he is a follower of Christ.  Then we can turn to Jesus who also refuses to speak.  In the first case, He is mocked and beaten by the soldiers.  They tie a blindfold on Him, strike Him across the face, and demand that He prophesy who hit Him.   He is treated to all manner of blasphemy, but He doesn't say a word (Isaiah 42:2).  Then when He is questioned by the religious leaders as to whether or not He is the Christ, He already knows that to answer them is futile.  He says, "If I tell you, you will by no means believe.  And if I also ask you, you will by no means answer Me or let Me go."  But then, He knows where He is going and what is going to happen, telling them only, "Hereafter the Son of Man will sit on the right hand of the power of God."  In a sense, with this last statement, He's answering their questions by declaring Himself, but not answering them directly as they desire.  Son of Man is a title for a messianic figure in the Book of Daniel, the right hand of the power of God is in the position of power with God.  In St. Peter's case, he is denying who he is as a member of Christ's followers, with his strong and vehement denials, as predicted by Christ.  In Jesus' case, He doesn't speak where it will do Him no good, and neither will it do any good to those to whom He might speak.  Indeed, revealing Himself to those who scoff or mock or beat Him would only condemn those people more for their refusal to hear.  It is Jesus who teaches us, "Do not give what is holy to the dogs; nor cast your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you in pieces" (Matthew 7:6).  Finally, He will not answer the elders of the people, both chief priests and scribes, who bring Him in to trial.  As He said at His arrest, "When I was with you daily in the temple, you did not try to seize Me.  But this is your hour, and the power of darkness" (see yesterday's reading, above).  But here they ask Him again, although they have no intention -- and perhaps no capability at this stage -- of believing His answer, of responding to Him, or of letting Him go.  This truth about them He will declare Himself, and finally, He will make a statement about where He knows He is going, and whom He knows He is and the role He will assume.  Jesus' denial to speak contrasts with Peter in that Jesus is absolutely true to Himself, to the One whom He is in the sight of God the Father.  Peter is denying himself by denying Christ; he isn't being true to the identity he's been called to assume by Christ.  Both do not answer in the ways their interrogators desire them to, but one denies the truth, and the other embodies the truth in all things and through all things.  What these poignant and terrible scenes teach us is all about how to comport ourselves as Christians, as His followers.  There will be proper times to speak and proper times not to speak -- but in all cases, our personal integrity is the truth of Christ that we can live, even through the worst of things we may experience.  We should not get caught up in formalities, but rather rely on our faith to teach us and guide us through all difficulties properly.  There is a deeply powerful moment written into this account in Luke, and that is also a moment of 'not speaking.'   We're told that the Lord turned and looked at Peter just as the rooster crowed.  How many volumes of truth does the Lord's gaze tell to Peter, and even to all of us who will one day also stand before that gaze ourselves?  He doesn't need to say a word, for He has already foretold what Peter would do, and Peter is at once brought back to himself, and to the truth of what he's doing -- even to his failure to hold to his promise that he was willing to go to prison and to die with him (Luke 22:33).  St. Peter weeps bitterly in repentance after Christ's look brings all things back to his remembrance.  Let us remember the power in silence, in a look, in a refusal to speak, even in an answer that's not really an answer someone wants to demand from us.  Let us remember the power of truth in all things, and the One who is the truth that guides us in our responses to the world, our identities and loyalties to Him first of all.

Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak

 

 Then Jesus said to them, "All of you will be made to stumble because of Me this night, for it is written:

    'I will strike the Shepherd,

    And the sheep will be scattered.'

"But after I have been raised, I will go before you to Galilee."  Peter said to Him, "Even if all are made to stumble, yet I will not be."  Jesus said to him, "Assuredly, I say to you that today, even this night, before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times."  But he spoke more vehemently, "If I have to die with You, I will not deny You!"  And they all said likewise.

Then they came to a place which was named Gethsemane; and He said to His disciples, "Sit here while I pray."  And He took Peter, James, and John with Him, and He began to be troubled and deeply distressed. Then He said to them, "My soul is exceedingly sorrowful, even to death.  Stay here and watch."  

 

He went a little farther, and fell on the ground, and prayed that if it were possible, the hour might pass from Him.  And He said, "Abba, Father, all things are possible for You.  Take this cup away from Me; nevertheless, not what I will, but what You will."  Then He came and found them sleeping, and said to Peter, "Simon, are you sleeping?   Could you not watch one hour?  Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation.  The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak."  Again He went away and prayed, and spoke the same words.  And when He returned, He found them asleep again, for their eyes were heavy; and they did not know what to answer Him.  Then He came the third time and said to them, "Are you still sleeping and resting?  It is enough!  The hour has come; behold, the Son of Man is being betrayed into the hands of sinners.  Rise, let us be going.  See, My betrayer is at hand."

 

- Mark 14:27–42 

 

 Now on the first day of Unleavened Bread, when they killed the Passover lamb, His disciples said to Him, "Where do You want us to go and prepare, that You may eat the Passover?"  And He sent out two of His disciples and said to them, "Go into the city, and a man will meet you carrying a pitcher of water; follow him.  Wherever he goes in, say to the master of the house, 'The Teacher says, "Where is the guest room in which I may eat the Passover with My disciples?"'  Then he will show you a large upper room, furnished and prepared; there make ready for us."  So His disciples went out, and they came into the city, and found it just as He had said to them; and they prepared the Passover.  In the evening He came with the twelve.  Now as they sat and ate, Jesus said, "Assuredly, I say to you, one of you who eats with Me will betray Me."  And they began to be sorrowful, and to say to Him one by one, "Is it I?"  And another said, "Is it I?"  He answered and said to them, "It is one of the twelve, who dips with Me in the dish.  The Son of Man indeed goes just as it is written of Him, but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed!  It would have been good for that man if he had never been born."  And as they were eating, Jesus took bread, blessed and broke it, and gave it to them and said, "Take, eat; this is My body."  Then He took the cup, and when He had given thanks He gave it to them, and they all drank from it.  And He said to them, "This is My blood of the new covenant, which is shed for many.  Assuredly, I say to you, I will no longer drink of the fruit of the vine until that day when I drink it new in the kingdom of God."  And when they had sung a hymn, they went out to the Mount of Olives.

 

 Then Jesus said to them, "All of you will be made to stumble because of Me this night, for it is written: 'I will strike the Shepherd, and the sheep will be scattered.'   But after I have been raised, I will go before you to Galilee."  Peter said to Him, "Even if all are made to stumble, yet I will not be."  Jesus said to him, "Assuredly, I say to you that today, even this night, before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times."  But he spoke more vehemently, "If I have to die with You, I will not deny You!"  And they all said likewise.  Jesus quotes from the prophecy of Zechariah (Zechariah 13:7).  He Himself is the Shepherd of the prophecy, the prophesied Messiah.  Peter contradicts Jesus' own prediction, following the Scripture, that "all of you will be made to stumble because of Me this night."  We will later see Peter's reckoning in regard to his own certainty, as Jesus' subsequent prophecy regarding Peter is fulfilled:  "Assuredly, I say to you that today, even this night, before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times." 

Then they came to a place which was named Gethsemane; and He said to His disciples, "Sit here while I pray."  And He took Peter, James, and John with Him, and He began to be troubled and deeply distressed. Then He said to them, "My soul is exceedingly sorrowful, even to death.  Stay here and watch."  My study Bible explains that Gethsemane means "oil press."  Jesus and the disciples are now in an orchard of olive trees at the foot of the Mount of Olives.  A note on this garden, mentioned in John 18:2, comments that as Christ intentionally came to the place known to His betrayer, Judas, one of His disciples, shows that He was going to His Passion willingly and voluntarily.  It reveals, my study Bible says, that Christ went to find Judas rather than Judas finding Christ.  Let us note that Jesus, in His exceedingly sorrowful state, even to death, tells the disciples, "Stay here and watch."  Watch is the repeated word we've heard Him give as He warned of the distress and tribulation to come in the end times.  This vigilance is the repeated word of Christ for our conduct as we await His return.

He went a little farther, and fell on the ground, and prayed that if it were possible, the hour might pass from Him.  And He said, "Abba, Father, all things are possible for You.  Take this cup away from Me; nevertheless, not what I will, but what You will."  Then He came and found them sleeping, and said to Peter, "Simon, are you sleeping?   Could you not watch one hour?  Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation.  The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak."  Again He went away and prayed, and spoke the same words.  And when He returned, He found them asleep again, for their eyes were heavy; and they did not know what to answer Him.  Then He came the third time and said to them, "Are you still sleeping and resting?  It is enough!  The hour has come; behold, the Son of Man is being betrayed into the hands of sinners.  Rise, let us be going.  See, My betrayer is at hand."  My study Bible comments that Abba in Aramaic is the familiar form for Father, similar to saying "Papa," which teaches us of Christ's intimacy God the Father.  This cup refers to Christ's impending death.  According to His divine nature, my study Bible says, Jesus willingly goes to His death.  But as a man, He wishes He could avoid it, for it is the mark of humanity to abhor death.  He prays that if it were possible, the hour might pass from Him, giving us abundant proof of His divine nature.  But despite this struggle of agony, Jesus is without sin.  He completely subjects and unites His human will to the Father's divine will.

Yet again, we find Christ repeating these words, to watch and pray.  And again, we note the importance of these repeated words, an admonition which He sprinkled throughout His warnings of the end times to come, the tribulation which His followers would face in one form or another through the times in which we now live as we await His return.  Here, He tells Peter, "Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation.  The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak."  It seems likely that we can consider Peter to be a stand-in for all the disciples, representing them, and even representing those of us who would be His disciples, the faithful to come.  These words are for all of us, even all the time, as we go through our lives and our own difficulties, our own struggles with faith -- and especially with times of tribulation, worry, shock, or fear.  In His prophecies of end times, Jesus repeatedly warned of troubles to come, such as natural disasters, wars, persecutions -- even of being hated by all for His name's sake.  What this means is that even in those times when we are tempted to panic, to flee, to fight, to take up weapons, to do whatever we can to evade what is coming in life, and even when sitting down to pray is the last thing on our minds -- it even may take great strength and forced concentration to do so, even against our own wills, we are to "Watch and pray, lest you enter into temptation.  The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak."  These words are especially important to St. Peter, for he is our example of our own trusting to ourselves when we need to rely upon the strength of God to help us under difficult circumstances, especially when we struggle with threatening and frightening events in our lives.   Sometimes it takes intense focus and concentration, and a great act of will to pray, particularly when we feel overwhelmed and in desperate need to change the things that loom too large to avoid.   The events to come would shake the disciples to the core, and may be so great in their impact that we cannot possibly imagine the turmoil they went through.  But these are the words of Christ for them, and in our own times of agony we should remember them as well.  For, no matter what there is to do, it is in our prayer we call upon the help we need when our own resources cannot meet the struggle.  What often seems like only a "worldly" problem is compounded in its spiritual impact, and we need God's help to see where we are, even to accept something we can't bear to face.  This is how we find our way through the times that hurt, through unbearable bad news, through betrayals and tribulations, or losses we don't know how to bear.  Let us remember His words in all times.  

 

 

 

 

 

For the things concerning Me have an end

 

 And the Lord said, "Simon, Simon!  Indeed, Satan has asked for you, that he may sift you as wheat.  But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail; and when you have returned to Me, strengthen your brethren."  But he said to Him, "Lord, I am ready to go with You, both to prison and to death."  Then He said, "I tell you, Peter, the rooster shall not crow this day before you will deny three times that you know Me."

And He said to them, "When I sent you without money bag, knapsack, and sandals, did you lack anything?"  So they said, "Nothing."  Then He said to them, "But now, he who has a money bag, let him take it, and likewise a knapsack; and he who has no sword, let him sell his garment and buy one.  For I say to you that this which is written must still be accomplished in Me:  'And He was numbered with the transgressors.'  For the things concerning Me have an end."  So they said, "Lord, look, here are two swords."  And He said to them, "It is enough."

 

- Luke 22:31–38 

 

Yesterday we read that, at the Last Supper, there was also a dispute among the disciples, as to which of them should be considered the greatest.  And He said to them, "The kings of the Gentiles exercise lordship over them, and those who exercise authority over them are called 'benefactors.'  But not so among you; on the contrary, he who is greatest among you, let him be as the younger, and he who governs as he who serves.  For who is greater, he who sits at the table, or he who serves?  Is it not he who sits at the table?  Yet I am among you as the One who serves.  But you are those who have continued with Me in My trials.  And I bestow upon you a kingdom, just as My Father bestowed one upon Me, that you may eat and drink at My table in My kingdom, and sit on thrones judging the twelve tribes of Israel." 

 

 And the Lord said, "Simon, Simon!  Indeed, Satan has asked for you, that he may sift you as wheat.  But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail; and when you have returned to Me, strengthen your brethren."  But he said to Him, "Lord, I am ready to go with You, both to prison and to death."  Then He said, "I tell you, Peter, the rooster shall not crow this day before you will deny three times that you know Me."   My study Bible asks us to note that when Jesus says to Simon Peter, "Satan has asked for you, that he may sift you as wheat," He is using the plural form of "you" (in the Greek of the text).  That is, Satan has asked for all the disciples.  But in the following verse ("But I have prayed for you, that your faith should not fail; and when you have returned to Me, strengthen your brethren"), this form of you is singular, indicating that Jesus prayed especially for Simon Peter.   My study Bible comments that because Peter's faith was the strongest, he would be tested the most.  Note that Jesus also says, ". . . when you have returned to Me" -- see John 21:15-17.  Moreover, Jesus tells Simon Peter to "strengthen your brethren."  My study Bible comments that this refers not only to the other disciples, but to all the faithful until Christ returns.  

And He said to them, "When I sent you without money bag, knapsack, and sandals, did you lack anything?"  So they said, "Nothing."  Then He said to them, "But now, he who has a money bag, let him take it, and likewise a knapsack; and he who has no sword, let him sell his garment and buy one.  For I say to you that this which is written must still be accomplished in Me:  'And He was numbered with the transgressors.'  For the things concerning Me have an end."  So they said, "Lord, look, here are two swords."  And He said to them, "It is enough."  My study Bible comments here that the sword mentioned by Jesus is not to be understood literally (compare this to verses 49-51).  Rather, this "sword" refers to the living word of God in the battle against sin (Ephesians 6:17; Hebrews 4:12).  According to St. Ambrose, my study Bible notes, this has an additional meaning, in that giving up one's garment and buying a sword refers to surrendering the body to the sword of martyrdom.  As the disciples are thinking of swords literally, Jesus abruptly ends the discussion with the words, "It is enough."  My study Bible says these words are better translated, "Enough of this!"  (see Deuteronomy 3:26; Mark 14:41).

In today's reading, Jesus says, somewhat mysteriously to the disciples, " For the things concerning Me have an end."   In the reading from this past Saturday, we discussed the meaning of the Greek τέλος/telos.  This is the word that Jesus uses, which is translated as "end."  But τέλος/telos has a kind of differentiated sense of "ending" than does the English word "end."  It doesn't simply mean the cut off point of something, or the finishing off of something.  But telos denotes a sense of fullness also, as if whatever the subject is has a point of fullness -- its ultimate final state.  This is not simply an end, in the sense in which we understand "end."  It is, in fact, almost its opposite.  It is the fullest point to which something can be continued.  Hence we uses the word "teleology" for "end times," which means much more than simply that things are over.  Our "end times" are the fullness of the present age in which we live, the culmination of all of the possible outcomes of something begun by Christ.  Here, Jesus speaks of the fullness of the "things concerning Me."  And in so doing, He speaks of prophesy:  "And He was numbered with the transgressors."  This comes from Isaiah 53:12, and in this case, Christ's "ending" is not simply a finish, but in fact the fulfillment of this prophesy.  The transgressors can also be translated, the "lawless."  That is, the Author of the Law Himself will be numbered among the lawless, and hung upon a Cross, the punishment reserved for the worst offenders.  It is the fulfillment of this prophecy to which He's referring when He says, "For I say to you that this which is written must still be accomplished in Me."  In Luke 9:1-6, we can read about Jesus sending out the Twelve on their first apostolic mission.  He says tells them, "Take nothing for the journey, neither staffs nor bag nor bread nor money; and do not have two tunics apiece."  At this time, He tells them, in contrast, "But now, he who has a money bag, let him take it, and likewise a knapsack; and he who has no sword, let him sell his garment and buy one."  If we are not to understand a literal teaching about buying a sword, what are we to make of this?  Certainly the commentary from my study Bible is true.  But we recall also that Jesus has said, "A disciple is not above his teacher, but everyone who is perfectly trained will be like his teacher" (Luke 6:40).  In John's Gospel, at the Last Supper, Jesus explains:  "Remember the word that I said to you, 'A servant is not greater than his master.' If they persecuted Me, they will also persecute you. If they kept My word, they will keep yours also. But all these things they will do to you for My name’s sake, because they do not know Him who sent Me" (John 15:20-21).  So, another way that we can understand Christ's teaching here is by way of explaining to them that this begins the period of tribulation.  That, in other words, with the birth of the Church is also going to come persecution -- not just for Christ, but for His followers also.  In Matthew 10, Jesus sends out the Twelve on their first mission, but with admonitions about the persecution that will come:  "Behold, I send you out as sheep in the midst of wolves. Therefore be wise as serpents and harmless as doves" (verse 16).  In fact, nearly the whole of chapter 10 is a discourse on the dangers that His followers will face (especially verses 16-42).  In this section of Matthew we find again this teaching:  "A disciple is not above his teacher, nor a servant above his master" (verse 24).  So, if we are to take Christ's words appropriately, we should understand that ours is not a faith that promises a life in which we have no struggles.  Indeed, in some sense what we are given is a life in which we know our Lord had to deal with conflict and opposition, and so will we.  In living our faith, we might also find at times we feel like sheep in the midst of wolves.  But to suffer with Christ is to be His follower, as St. Paul writes that "if indeed we suffer with Him, that we may also be glorified together" (Romans 8:17).  If we mistakenly believe that our faith is a work of a kind of "magic" that automatically means the whole world loves us, or that we won't have to struggle at all, then we're sadly mistaken.  Faith is in the power of acceptance, of both the glory and joys of Christ, but yet also His struggle in the world.  In Psalm 110, God says to God's appointed, the Messiah, "The Lord shall send the rod of Your strength out of Zion.  Rule in the midst of Your enemies!"  Christ yet rules in the midst of enemies, and we live in a world where our greatest joys and beauty dwell together with unhappy things, and destructive influence.  Yet we persist and endure, and God is present with us always.  Let us rejoice and give thanks for the gift of Christ's blessed way of life.

Take, eat; this is My body

 

 And as they were eating, Jesus took bread, blessed and broke it, and gave it to the disciples and said, "Take, eat; this is My body."  Then He took the cup, and gave thanks, and gave it to them, saying, "Drink from it, all of you.  For this is My blood of the new covenant, which is shed for many for the remission of sins.  But I say to you, I will not drink of this fruit of the vine from now on until that day when I drink it new with you in My Father's kingdom."  And when they had sung a hymn, they went out to the Mount of Olives.

Then Jesus said to them, "All of you will be made to stumble because of Me this night, for it is written:

'I will strike the Shepherd, 

 And the sheep of the flock will be scattered.'

But after I have been raised, I will go before you to Galilee."  Peter answered and said to Him, "Even if all are made to stumble because of You, I will never be made to stumble."  Jesus said to him, "Assuredly, I say to you that this night, before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  Peter said to Him, "Even if I have to die with You, I will not deny You!"  And so said all the disciples.

 

- Matthew 26:26-35 

 

Yesterday we read that on the first day of the Feast of Unleavened Bread the disciples came to Jesus, saying to Him, "Where do You want us to prepare for You to eat the Passover?"  And He said, "Go into the city to a certain man, and say to him, 'The Teacher says, "My time is at hand; I will keep the Passover at your house with My disciples."'"  So the disciples did as Jesus had directed them; and they prepared the Passover.  When evening had come, He sat down with the twelve.  Now as they were eating, He said, "Assuredly, I say to you, one of you will betray Me."  And they were exceedingly sorrowful, and each of them began to say to Him, "Lord, is it I?"  He answered and said, "He who dipped his hand with Me in the dish will betray Me.  The Son of Man indeed goes just as it is written of Him, but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed!  It would have been good for that man if he had not been born."  Then Judas, who was betraying Him, answered and said, "Rabbi, is it I?"  He said to him, "You have said it."

 

  And as they were eating, Jesus took bread, blessed and broke it, and gave it to the disciples and said, "Take, eat; this is My body."  Then He took the cup, and gave thanks, and gave it to them, saying, "Drink from it, all of you.  For this is My blood of the new covenant, which is shed for many for the remission of sins."  Jesus here institutes the Eucharist, which my study Bible names the long-awaited messianic banquet, to which He admits even Judas at this meal, as Christ is seeking by all means to save him.   Because of his wicked heart, my study Bible says, Judas' participation leads to his condemnation (1 Corinthians 11:27-30).  My study Bible comments that Christ's words are repeated in the Divine Liturgy, when the faithful are invited to receive His body and blood.  In Holy Communion, we are truly united to Christ.  Jesus gave thanks (the root of this verb in Greek is eucharist) to teach us first of all, how we are to celebrate this sacrament.   He is also teaching that He comes willingly to His Passion, and that we also can accept sufferings with thankfulness -- as we know that God can use sufferings for ultimate good.  Moreover, my study Bible adds that the Old Covenant was sealed with the blood of bulls and goats, while the New is sealed by the gift of Christ Himself -- who shed His own blood to conquer sin and death and to reconcile us with God.  Christ calls it the blood of the new covenant, which is God's promise and the fulfillment of the Law.  In using the word "new" Christ means that this covenant brings immortality and incorruptible life; it will always have the quality of newness.  See Revelation 21:5.  For many is an Aramaic expression which means "for all."

"But I say to you, I will not drink of this fruit of the vine from now on until that day when I drink it new with you in My Father's kingdom."  And when they had sung a hymn, they went out to the Mount of Olives.  My study Bible comments that according to patristic consensus Jesus also drinks the cup of His own Blood.  This He does to lead all believers into participation in His heavenly mysteries.  My study Bible says that in My Father's kingdom relates to the time after Christ's Resurrection, when Christ will eat and drink to show the reality of His victory over death (see Luke 24:41-43).  Moreover, it points to the eternal banquet of the Kingdom in the age to come.  

Then Jesus said to them, "All of you will be made to stumble because of Me this night, for it is written:  'I will strike the Shepherd, and the sheep of the flock will be scattered.'  But after I have been raised, I will go before you to Galilee."  Peter answered and said to Him, "Even if all are made to stumble because of You, I will never be made to stumble."  Jesus said to him, "Assuredly, I say to you that this night, before the rooster crows, you will deny Me three times."  Peter said to Him, "Even if I have to die with You, I will not deny You!"  And so said all the disciples.  Jesus gives another prophesy that will be fulfilled, quoting from Zechariah 13:7.   Note how not only Peter, as frequent spokesman for the disciples, vehemently denies that he will stumble, but also so said all the disciples.  

What strange combination of events we get in the Gospels.  It is much like life itself:  together with the greatest gift for mankind, the most exalted moment of Christ's grace to us in the giving of the Eucharist, we are told that this night they will strike the Shepherd, and all will be made to stumble because of Him, and the flock scattered.  It is like the chiaroscuro of the greatest painters, or the film noir of modern times, in which black and white, dark and light, are juxtaposed to give us just this sense of how the dark can be present even while there is the greatest light existent for us at any moment in our lives, even seemingly at times of the greatest exultation.   The story of Christ, no matter how many ways in which we might experience something similar, or a story is told that seemingly holds the same elements, sets a pattern down for us.  It expresses something real about the world that we live in, and it offers us a choice in the midst of this world in which light and dark can coexist so starkly, as we read so clearly in the prologue to John's Gospel, when we are told of Christ that "in Him was life, and the life was the light of men. And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it" (John 1:4-5).  We might experience this black and white quality often in our own lives also.  Seemingly at times when our deepest desires might be realized, so we experience a darkness that seems to blight our happiness even at the same moment.  But the power of this story is in the light that it offers us in the midst of darkness, for it is that light to which we must be drawn and which shows us our way through the world.  It is His light to which we cling and follow even when we can't see very well in the darkness that we experience in life.  For when we lose that light, then we truly lose our way.  So often we might find ourselves lost in darkness because something sounded right or good, and it really wasn't.  Peter displaying his great proclamation of indignance and loyalty to Christ, stating, "Even if all are made to stumble because of You, I will never be made to stumble," might be seen as one example of this.  All of the disciples follow his lead in this declaration, but Christ knows better and understands the human weakness and vulnerability upon which darkness can play.   A fine thing -- the kind of loyalty and courage on display in Peter's statement -- may cover a truth we'd rather not see nor know, and will have to discover for ourselves, as Peter will with bitter tears.  But therein, even in that sub-story to this plot, is the Cross, for it is in reconciling to the reality of our lives that we find the light and come to terms with what it asks of us -- hence the great historic stress on truly knowing ourselves and coming to terms with the things we need to be aware of and to act upon (see Matthew 18:8-9).  But here in today's reading, Jesus gives us the very gift that literally means to give thanks, the Eucharist.  He gives us the gift of Himself and His communion with us and among us, the sacrifice of His Body and Blood.  And at this greatest moment which we as humankind can receive, He warns of the Cross and speaks of the danger that awaits the disciples as an enemy will strike the Shepherd.  We shouldn't forget we still live in the same world where that same enemy preys on weakness and vulnerability, where we can fool ourselves with our own bluff, and our vulnerabilities may even be things we're not aware of.  Let us understand that it is in the truth of the Gospel that we find ourselves and we find our way, not in saccharine or sentimental ideas but in coming to terms with truth at the Cross, including the truth of where we stumble.  Neither believe those who say life is all darkness, for that is the way to nothing.   For this is the good news, the road of salvation and spiritual growth in the Kingdom, preparing us for the crowns these disciples will certainly wear.  For we are on a road, Christ's "way" -- which goes together with His truth and His life, and there is no other to be found (John 14:6).

 

 

 

 

And when he thought about it, he wept

 

 Now as Peter was below in the courtyard, one of the servant girls of the high priest came.  And when she saw Peter warming himself, she looked at him and said, "You also were with Jesus of Nazareth."  But he denied it, saying, "I neither know nor understand what you are saying."  And he went out on the porch, and a rooster crowed.  And the servant girl saw him again, and began to say to those who stood by, "This is one of them."  But he denied it again.  And a little later those who stood by said to Peter again, "Surely you are one of them; for you are a Galilean, and your speech shows it."  Then he began to curse and swear, "I do not know this Man of whom you speak!"  A second time the rooster crowed.  Then Peter called to mind the word that Jesus had said to him, "Before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times."  And when he thought about it, he wept.

 

- Mark 14:66–72 

 

Yesterday we read that they led Jesus away to the high priest; and with him were assembled all the chief priests, the elders, and the scribes.  But Peter followed Him at a distance, right into the courtyard of the high priest.  And he sat with the servants and warmed himself at the fire.  Now the chief priests and all the council sought testimony against Jesus to put Him to death, but found none.  For many bore false witness against Him, but their testimonies did not agree.  Then some rose up and bore false witness against Him, saying, "We heard Him say, 'I will destroy this temple made with hands, and within three days I will build another made without hands.'"  But not even then did their testimony agree.  And the high priest stood up in the midst and asked Jesus, saying, "Do You answer nothing?  What is it these men testify against You?"  But He kept silent and answered nothing.  Again the high priest asked Him, saying to Him, "Are You the Christ, the Son of the Blessed?"  Jesus said, "I am.  And you will see the Son of Man sitting at the right hand of the Power, and coming with the clouds of heaven."  Then the high priest tore his clothes and said, "What further need do we have of witnesses?  You have heard the blasphemy!  What do you think?"  And they all condemned Him to be deserving of death.  Then some began to spit on Him, and to beat Him, and to say to Him, "Prophesy!"  And the officers struck Him with the palms of their hands.   

 Now as Peter was below in the courtyard, one of the servant girls of the high priest came.  And when she saw Peter warming himself, she looked at him and said, "You also were with Jesus of Nazareth."  But he denied it, saying, "I neither know nor understand what you are saying."  And the servant girl saw him again, and began to say to those who stood by, "This is one of them."  But he denied it again. We can't read this passage without refreshing our memories of the events earlier in the night, when Peter swore to Jesus at the Last Supper, "Even if all are made to stumble, yet I will not be."  Jesus then told Peter, "Assuredly, I say to you that today, even this night, before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times."  Peter then spoke more vehemently, "If I have to die with You, I will not deny You!"  (See Friday's reading.)  My study Bible comments regarding the events in today's passage that a girl being the first to test Peter is an icon of the temptation of Adam by Eve (Genesis 3:6).  Our fallen state, it says, is overcome in Christ when women are the first to hear, believe, and proclaim the Resurrection (Luke 24:1-10).  

And a little later those who stood by said to Peter again, "Surely you are one of them; for you are a Galilean, and your speech shows it."  Then he began to curse and swear, "I do not know this Man of whom you speak!"  A second time the rooster crowed.  Then Peter called to mind the word that Jesus had said to him, "Before the rooster crows twice, you will deny Me three times."  And when he thought about it, he wept.   As Mark reports it, the second time the rooster crowed, Peter called to mind the word that Jesus had said to him.  In Luke's report of this event, it's not the rooster's second crow that makes Peter recall Jesus' word to him, but a gaze from the Lord Himself (Luke 22:61-62).  Either way, Peter wept at the realization.  My study Bible quotes St. Ambrose of Milan who comments that "through tears, what cannot be defended can be purged, for tears wash away the offense which is shameful to confess out loud."

St. Ambrose comments on the cleansing nature of tears.  This is an important understanding in the traditions of the Church.  The Orthodox tradition of using prayer ropes evolved out of the practice of the desert monastics, in which knots are made for use as "beads" of prayer.  In such practice, there is almost always a tassel at the end of the rope (see this image, for example).  It is said that this tassel is for wiping away the tears that come from true repentance.  There is possible no greater nor more powerful image for such cleansing tears as the one of St. Peter in today's reading.  In so many ways, Peter has set the example of discipleship for us, both in his failings and in his greatness as de facto spokesman for the Twelve.  In today's reading, the comment from St. Ambrose reminds us, we are taught by Peter's example, that "through tears, what cannot be defended can be purged, for tears wash away the offense which is shameful to confess out loud."  While people might often speak disparagingly of those who are able to produce false tears at the drop of a hat, historically it is understood that it is in tears that the soul truly reveals itself.  We cry not only for repentance about those things of which we are ashamed, but also for other things which we cannot change -- and still, the tears remain signs of truthfulness, and also repentance of a different sort.  That is, tears are also signs of the sorrow that comes from mourning.  Tears might easily accompany a confession of childhood abuse or trauma; in the sense of which we speak today, these would not be tears of self-pity nor even tears of suffering, but tears that accompany the recognition of a truth one does not like to admit to oneself.  This still fits in the important category of repentance and confession, for it isn't until we can reveal the painful truths at the bottom of behavior patterns we'd like to heal that we can begin to have the "change of mind" we seek in Christ (for "change of mind" is the true meaning of the Greek word for repentance).  In modern times we seem to have waylaid our understanding of the significance of tears in this light, but that would seem to me a grave mistake.  Possibly it is because we are saturated with images on social and other media where, for decades now, we can see nothing but acting or playing a role.  But the significance of the tears that memories can produce in our own lives should not be thrown away easily or lightly, for a great deal depends upon the reality that is truly revealed in such tears.   In those tears, the soul reveals true feelings about past events, the trauma of things we've kept hidden from ourselves, the shame of those experiences we don't want to look at.  But the healing even from things that are not our fault is necessary in the process of transformation and repentance ("change of mind") that we will find in our journey with Christ, for it is from such painful experiences that false behaviors grow, and that depend upon the lies we tell to ourselves.  The only true way to heal is through the faith that Christ offers us, and the transformation process of the Cross to find the better way in which we are guided to live our lives, for of such character is true confession made, even in the lives of the saints.  Our toughest and most shameful experiences belong with Christ, for it is His way we seek out of them and through them.  This is part of the process of forgiveness, in which we seek God's way to respond even to people who have harmed us.  Just as tears reveal St. Peter's coming to terms with the truth of his own failure and reconciliation to Christ in the truth that Christ revealed to him, so tears also reconcile us to the truth of things we'd rather pretend were not there in any circumstance.  Each comes out of necessary confession and revelation of a truth we need to face, and each comes to wash away falsehood before Christ, and to help to reconcile us to Christ.  For it is only Christ who can help us to properly address our flaws and weaknesses, and the hard experiences that have given us our vulnerabilities.  It is Christ and the saints, and the angels who seek to help us through life, upon whom we must seek our way through pain and difficulty, lest we fall victim to false ways in which to cope or create the illusion of invulnerability or pride.  Let us come to terms with the power of tears and of confession, in which our soul is revealed to us before God, in the loving hands and heart of Christ.  In this way, like Peter, our tears can wash away what can't be defended so that we return to Him with empty hands, for only He can properly fill them for us.